Mrs. T-800
schwarzenegger fangirl ♡t-800 from t2 is my love♡
- Nov 25, 2025
- 158
Another day in the marriage from hell, working the job from hell, having the disorders and dysmorphia from hell and the self-image from hell.
To boot I was being a listening ear and discussion partner to my grandfather on a matter he wanted to discuss with my mom (TLDR my aunt hurt her greatly). He wants them to reconcile. I was naturally on my mom's side but now that he has told her his feelings I feel like she will feel betrayed that I was discussing this with him essentially behind her back, even if I was just kind of helping parse it out. (On second thought, or was I? Was I being a nosy bitch? Was I backstabbing?) Because it was just between me and him and I was giving him my thoughts on things related.
Too cowardly to CTB, but very anxious, very tired, very ready for it all to be over. I wish I didn't exist to begin with. But someone has to suffer, and it might as well be me. I deserve it. I can't believe how much of a bitch I am.
To boot I was being a listening ear and discussion partner to my grandfather on a matter he wanted to discuss with my mom (TLDR my aunt hurt her greatly). He wants them to reconcile. I was naturally on my mom's side but now that he has told her his feelings I feel like she will feel betrayed that I was discussing this with him essentially behind her back, even if I was just kind of helping parse it out. (On second thought, or was I? Was I being a nosy bitch? Was I backstabbing?) Because it was just between me and him and I was giving him my thoughts on things related.
Too cowardly to CTB, but very anxious, very tired, very ready for it all to be over. I wish I didn't exist to begin with. But someone has to suffer, and it might as well be me. I deserve it. I can't believe how much of a bitch I am.
