TheSpookyNameGuy

TheSpookyNameGuy

There's nothing here..
Apr 30, 2023
646
Man. I lost it again im fucked holy shit.

I just got annoyed, dropped a can on the floor by mistake, it never made much mess at all but i just went crazy, grabbed my wood axe and started swinging. Some of my furniture and cabinets are just piles of chips now.

I do this every few weeks..

My house is an empty prison cell now, no tv or couch, white walls with giant holes in them from my rampages. Bare floors, had carpet but i sliced it up with a blade.

This shit never ends man holy fuck, give me a bottle of poison man, i don't care about shit anymore.

These prolifers are on a different planet dudes
 
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AllFoxedOut

AllFoxedOut

Arcanist
Jun 7, 2023
474
That sounds intense... you're suffering a lot. I'm sorry. Is this the worst it's ever been? Like, the destruction.
 
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TheSpookyNameGuy

TheSpookyNameGuy

There's nothing here..
Apr 30, 2023
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That sounds intense... you're suffering a lot. I'm sorry. Is this the worst it's ever been? Like, the destruction.
No fortunately, the worst left me covered in blood as i sliced myself on accident last time.

I just wrapped myself with bandages and painkillers, it healed but shit that day was a mess, normally i don gloves and a motorbike helmet to safeguard from that.

Just fuck man, i can't stop when i flip, most people here get scars from cutting, mine are from axe heads and projectiles hitting me
 
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UnwindingStar

UnwindingStar

The one who almost got away
Feb 14, 2023
39
That sounds awful. You're clearly in some kind of pain, I hope it ends soon .
 
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MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
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Man. I lost it again im fucked holy shit.

I just got annoyed, dropped a can on the floor by mistake, it never made much mess at all but i just went crazy, grabbed my wood axe and started swinging. Some of my furniture and cabinets are just piles of chips now.

I do this every few weeks..

My house is an empty prison cell now, no tv or couch, white walls with giant holes in them from my rampages. Bare floors, had carpet but i sliced it up with a blade.

This shit never ends man holy fuck, give me a bottle of poison man, i don't care about shit anymore.

These prolifers are on a different planet dudes
I know the feeling, when I lost my temper I'd used to cut myself or punch bite etc, I hope life becomes better for you

I hope you can find peace in life or death
 
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TheSpookyNameGuy

TheSpookyNameGuy

There's nothing here..
Apr 30, 2023
646
I know the feeling, when I lost my temper I'd used to cut myself or punch bite etc, I hope life becomes better for you

I hope you can find peace in life or death
Thanks man, i think only death will bring the peace im after, im too aware and too explosive to fit into this world.

I feel if i don't leave soon i might do some lunatic kind of shit, i don't want that but i never wanted schizophrenia either and well it reared its ugly head anyways
 
MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
Thanks man, i think only death will bring the peace im after, im too aware and too explosive to fit into this world.

I feel if i don't leave soon i might do some lunatic kind of shit, i don't want that but i never wanted schizophrenia either and well it reared its ugly head anyways
Yeah same here, when I lose my temper I just want death, I hate seeing myself angry, it's common to think those thoughts after a massive rage. I just wish for my mind to be numb
 
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TheSpookyNameGuy

TheSpookyNameGuy

There's nothing here..
Apr 30, 2023
646
Yeah same here, when I lose my temper I just want death, I hate seeing myself angry, it's common to think those thoughts after a massive rage. I just wish for my mind to be numb
Yea then you sit there with intermittent pulses of anger coming back through, often bite or slap myself i guess we have that in common lol

Lifes overrated dude aint it, who needs this shit daily?
 
MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
Yea then you sit there with intermittent pulses of anger coming back through, often bite or slap myself i guess we have that in common lol

Lifes overrated dude aint it, who needs this shit daily?
Ong bro, I just hope I can find peace either in life or death, I'm tired af
 
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