Discussion Another day in hell...how are the people who can't push past SI doing?

[zekeyaeger]

SI is keeping me bonded to this hellish realm. Fuck this. Winter only makes shit worse for my ass. Ugh.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

I really wanted to die today, I'm in this stasis where I don't want to do anything because I want to die soon anyways. But then I chicken out. It's exhausting. I'm so tired of living. The thought of failing my ctb method is killing me. Partial Hanging can be fucked up unconsciously I heard and I really don't want to have a possibility of failing my attempt but I can't seem to find any statistics on the success partial hanging. Why do they have to make dying so hard for us? I wish we had those suicide booths from futurama so we didn't have worry about SI or anything, just push the button and enjoy the ride.

 

[zekeyaeger]

I really wanted to die today, I'm in this stasis where I don't want to do anything because I want to die soon anyways. But then I chicken out. It's exhausting. I'm so tired of living. The thought of failing my ctb method is killing me. Partial Hanging can be fucked up unconsciously I heard and I really don't want to have a possibility of failing my attempt but I can't seem to find any statistics on the success partial hanging. Why do they have to make dying so hard for us? I wish we had those suicide booths from futurama so we didn't have worry about SI or anything, just push the button and enjoy the ride.

Yes, those suicide booths would be great tbh. I always chicken out, it sucks.

 

[willow115]

This title is so funny to me. Pretty good, thank you.

How come you don't like winter?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm doing so shitty although, as of right now, I don't think it's the SI that's keeping me here but rather the fear of getting caught and "rescued" whilst I try and drown myself. However, when I get into the actual situation itself, I'd probably be plagued with SI

 

[waterrrrrrrrrbottel]

Ah. bad. but my depression is subsided by my daily activities that i find amusement in. waiting for my sn, then i'll plan from there. unfortunately ill be living to see 2025.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Same , i'm doing horribly . Yes another day in hell

 

[future_]

feels like i would chicken out of euthanasia too

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Same , i'm doing horribly . Yes another day in hell

I'm sorry for your suffering. I hope you find peace soon away from this hellish world

 

[dontwakemeup]

I been in bed for 3 days, barely eating and drinking. I decided to go out and get some groceries. While going up my stairs at home I passed out. I don't know long I was out. I woke up with groceries all over my steps. I made it up the stairs and climbed in bed. My heart rate was high and I'm so thirsty it literally hurts to swallow. I drank some water and took my medicine.
After 3 days in bed. I just want to shower and change my sheets and go back to bed.
I tried, it didn't go well. I'll try tomorrow.

 

[ZoloftSüchtig]

It's sooo bad. I just want the suffering to be over. Why is killing myself so hard

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Joining the horrible contingent.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I been in bed for 3 days, barely eating and drinking. I decided to go out and get some groceries. While going up my stairs at home I passed out. I don't know long I was out. I woke up with groceries all over my steps. I made it up the stairs and climbed in bed. My heart rate was high and I'm so thirsty it literally hurts to swallow. I drank some water and took my medicine.
After 3 days in bed. I just want to shower and change my sheets and go back to bed.
I tried, it didn't go well. I'll try tomorrow.

You're not alone. I am mostly bedridden due to my depression as well. I want to die but I'm scared and too depressed to make a plan.

 

[dontwakemeup]

You're not alone. I am mostly bedridden due to my depression as well. I want to die but I'm scared and too depressed to make a plan.

I'm sorry you feel like this. It's an awful feeling. Things that help me is watching funny videos or a good movie. I also try crocheting, its very relaxing. I have chronic pain, so if my pain is terrible that day, I turn my phone on silent and just cry and wait for my pain medicine to kick in.

I hope you can find something or ways to help you too. But nope, you're not alone.