Anhedonia, Loneliness, and Emptiness

[cookman]

I was not going to post this because of thinking that no one will answer me.

Please someone brainwash me into thinking that I'm not lonely.

Scared of CTB, thinking it will make me die lonely.

I don't exist.

 

[OvercastingClouds]

I'm not good with like comforting but I want to say that I completely understand how you feel.
As someone who's been alone for about 6-7 years growing up, no close friends, no close family, getting bullied and isolating myself which gave me severe depression. The constant loneliness is miserable and sometimes suffocating.

I've tried to pretend I don't care but sometimes I feel down when I want to talk but have nobody to speak with and whatnot. Even I recently was looking up ways I could suppress my need for wanting connection and loneliness. Haven't found a method, I will say distracting myself is my best bet, anything that gives me a little joy like watching YouTube, shows, games, art, etc.

Hm, another way is by scrolling on social media. Double edged sword because I'll get videos of friend groups that makes me feel worse but then seeing video and comments of people being really critical, rude, messed up, treating others like crap, etc, kinda immediately decreases my urge to want to talk to others.

I'm not gonna say "you're not alone" since I hear that and it personally goes in one ear and out the other but, I see you and I understand. You exist.

Personally I say I'm existing but not living

 

[cookman]

I'm not good with like comforting but I want to say that I completely understand how you feel.
As someone who's been alone for about 6-7 years growing up, no close friends, no close family, getting bullied and isolating myself which gave me severe depression. The constant loneliness is miserable and sometimes suffocating.

I've tried to pretend I don't care but sometimes I feel down when I want to talk but have nobody to speak with and whatnot. Even I recently was looking up ways I could suppress my need for wanting connection and loneliness. Haven't found a method, I will say distracting myself is my best bet, anything that gives me a little joy like watching YouTube, shows, games, art, etc.

Hm, another way is by scrolling on social media. Double edged sword because I'll get videos of friend groups that makes me feel worse but then seeing video and comments of people being really critical, rude, messed up, treating others like crap, etc, kinda immediately decreases my urge to want to talk to others.

I'm not gonna say "you're not alone" since I hear that and it personally goes in one ear and out the other but, I see you and I understand. You exist.

Personally I say I'm existing but not living

Deep thinking and high intelligence makes me aware that distractions are fake.

 

[OvercastingClouds]

Oh yeah definitely! It makes it even harder for me to think of connecting with others because it feels like I just can't feel like they do? Not sure how to describe it. Not a lot of people think deeply and stuff so it feels kinda frustrating in a way, like people aren't as self aware so it's hard to relate.

On one hand it should make me feel whatever about thinking of connecting with others but I still get lonely at times, guess I can't really combat that no matter what distraction I use, it feels fake. Only thing that helps my brain a bit is spilling my thoughts on a journal or something, at least I have something to spill my brain out on instead of keeping everything in my head which makes things worse

 

[Dejected 55]

Unfortunately I have no answers to loneliness. It is one of the driving factors of why I hopefully will not be around soon. Everything is horrible and always being alone makes it all so much worse.

 

[wham311]

I can't be in a room by myself anymore.