Discussion anger and rage

[OzymandiAsh]

Anyone else struggled with extreme anger and rage in their life?

I have always had temper problems, sometimes violent, going back as far as preschool.
Extreme anger at any injustice, often got into fights and trouble.

A big part of my suicidality I think is having all that rage and nowhere to put it. I tried channeling it into productivity but ultimately that only made things worse and ended up with me burnt out and suffering neurological problems. There is also an element of sexual repression here since intimacy is a good way to work through such emotions and I haven't had much intimacy in my life.

Probably all suicidality comes back to not having enough intimacy one way or another, and negative emotions building up and festering as a result.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Yes. I get headaches from anger. I feel like there is a switch I'm my head that can have my anger go from 0 to 100 in a nano second.

But I'm in control. it's another reason I avoid people.

 

[itsgone2]

Anyone else struggled with extreme anger and rage in their life?

I have always had temper problems, sometimes violent, going back as far as preschool.
Extreme anger at any injustice, often got into fights and trouble.

Yes. Exactly this. Thinking everything an injustice. Have you seen a therapist? Ask about it. For me it was traits of NPD. I learned far too late. If you can control it now you may turn everything around.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Yes. Exactly this. Thinking everything an injustice. Have you seen a therapist? Ask about it. For me it was traits of NPD. I learned far too late. If you can control it now you may turn everything around.

I wouldn't say I thought everything was an injustice. But when I did feel something was, like some kids bullying my friends for example, then I would get very pissed off.

And yes I did therapy, didn't help

 

[itsgone2]

I wouldn't say I thought everything was an injustice. But when I did feel something was, like some kids bullying my friends for example, then I would get very pissed off.

And yes I did therapy, didn't help

That's fair. My initial therapy didn't help. Only later, when I was hit with the consequences of my actions, did therapy make sense.

You see it now though. That's a big step. I did not, for far too long.