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Lextyle

Lextyle

What is this - Life?
Apr 6, 2026
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Did anesthesia experience change how you view death and remove the fear of it? I feel like it made me think that death will be so peaceful, there will be nothing just like during anesthesia and I will not even know that I'm dead just like I never even existed in the first place.
 
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finalmission

finalmission

Student
Jan 8, 2025
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Yes it actually helped so much, i didnt have dreams during it or anything.

Probably my deepest sleep ever
And these evil humans brought me be back from it

Only I can bring permanent peace to myself
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
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I had an NDE back in 2019 because doctors gave me too much anesthesia during surgery. That NDE changed the way I look at death now.
 
Lextyle

Lextyle

What is this - Life?
Apr 6, 2026
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I had an NDE back in 2019 because doctors gave me too much anesthesia during surgery. That NDE changed the way I look at death now.
What was it like? Nothingness or you felt something?
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
1,107
What was it like? Nothingness or you felt something?
My NDE was a very positive and life changing one. In my NDE I met a friend of mine who comited suicide just few days before my surgery. She told me in my NDE that her soul is now in a good place.
This person was one of the kindest sweetest person I have ever known, sadly she suffered from depression in her later years and ended her life.
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
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I think it made me a little more fearful as I found the experience quite traumatic. I've had it 3 times in less than 18 months and I hated it every time. I can understand why some people find it peaceful but for me the nothingness was so odd. The fact that I couldn't remember drifting off or anyone else really freaked me out.

I will say though i'm an extremely anxious person and I'm afraid of everythingšŸ˜…. I don't want my post to scare anyone.
 
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Off_Switch

Off_Switch

Experienced
Aug 15, 2025
266
Dying under general anesthesia is the holy grail for me.
 
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