AMA

[hoping to lose hope]

I believe this is very recent, maybe in the last 20 years this has been happening.

No t has always sadly been happening behind the lights and glitter is a seedy world of abuse.

No you're not. You're evading because you're hiding something.

Confused as I have been answering questions.... I am shy whether you think so or not.

So you're ASSUMING every man likes to watch porn? That is so not true.

Nearly every man watches porn this is a fact.
We have been unable todo studies on the effects of porn because no control group could be made lol.

Yeah. Questions about gender, approximate age and reasons for coming to this site are hardly "personal".

They are all personal and obviously I am suicidal which is why I am here.
do I have to post my SN or something to show this??

 

[VisionsOfHell]

Nearly every man watches porn this is a fact.
We have been unable todo studies on the effects of porn because no control group could be made lol.

Its a cruel addiction. I am disgusted with myself everytime I relapse and most men are too.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

can we all take a breath and cool down please.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

I will answer every question but sometimes I am a tad shy.

If you're a tad shy, why did you make a whole thread asking people to "ask you anything" because you're bored?
Something not quite right here.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

Its a cruel addiction. I am disgusted with myself everytime I relapse and most men are too.

You can do it do not hate yourself for not being able to quit yet.

If you're a tad shy, why did you make a whole thread asking people to "ask you anything" because you're bored?
Something not quite right here.

I am shy when asked very personal things but everything else is fine.

 

[VisionsOfHell]

You can do it do not hate yourself for not being able to quit yet.

But why are you saying that you feel mentally molested by men? We do not chose this.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

But why are you saying that you feel mentally molested by men? We do not chose this.

I realize that men do not always consciously choose to do so and it is a overreaction on my part to care what they think but to know men are thinking sexually about woman they see in their minds puts me off.
It is largely a me problem.

 

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Why do u want to ctb

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

Why do u want to ctb

He won't answer it, the question is too personal.

 

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He won't answer it, the question is too personal.

I'm confused on why do an AMA then. That's like what everyone talks about in this site. Why they want to ctb, and etc.

 

[Ghost2211]

If I was here to rile people up I would be doing a better job of it wouldn't I as in actually trying to troll people.
I do not buy into the entire pity Olympics thing and do not see why you think I am not suicidal not care beyond being curious why you think I am not.
Just because I am not a hugbox superficial person does not mean I am a troll.

If you were here to rile up people I feel like you would do it in a subtle way as you tend to do. You seem to spend enough time on trolling sites that you're smarter than to be bold and loud about it since you would just get banned. You keep yourself just under the bannable actions, but don't act like your behavior goes unnoticed by the community.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

I'm confused on why do an AMA then. That's like what everyone talks about in this site. Why they want to ctb, and etc.

The OP is just bored with 4chan and reddit and somehow thinks that this site is similar to those sites. This thread is attention seeking drivel and many users see the OP as a troll. The OP never even hinted at their reasons for wanting to ctb. They write all of their posts with ironic detachment and talk about memes and through memes most of the time. These types of people are the worst. They walk a fine line and never say something that might get them outright banned, but they will spill their little toxic, insensitive remarks at others and eventually lower the quality of the forum. I do not want to watch teenage crap on this forum.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

If you were here to rile up people I feel like you would do it in a subtle way as you tend to do. You seem to spend enough time on trolling sites that you're smarter than to be bold and loud about it since you would just get banned. You keep yourself just under the bannable actions, but don't act like your behavior goes unnoticed by the community.

Well I get that some peoples they see y ideas and think oh no they are being troll and I get that they think like this.. but I am just being myself and always been odd never welcome anywhere so I do not even blame them.
I just want to relate to others as much as I can..

 

[Ghost2211]

Well I get that some peoples they see y ideas and think oh no they are being troll and I get that they think like this.. but I am just being myself and always been odd never welcome anywhere so I do not even blame them.
I just want to relate to others as much as I can..

If you want to relate to others then why would you be so insensitive to others?

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

Well I get that some peoples they see y ideas and think oh no they are being troll and I get that they think like this.. but I am just being myself and always been odd never welcome anywhere so I do not even blame them.
I just want to relate to others as much as I can..

You wrote to someone today that you did not respect them due to their taste in music. You cannot relate to people behaving like that.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

You wrote to someone today that you did not respect them due to their taste in music. You cannot relate to people behaving like that.

It was written in a joke like way I regret doing that and I have been learning how to adapt to people here to get along the best..
I put effort into thinking about the things people post and replying when it is serious.
I aploigized I need to learn that others do not take things as I take them.

I joined here because I was looking to ctb soon and found a nice community to relate to at times with..

If you want to relate to others then why would you be so insensitive to others?

Because it is unintentional I do not understand normal people at all I spent many many years alone IRL and only talking with some people who are what you guys would call edgy but I seen that when people speak their mind what they say when they mean it counts more.
I am trying hard I only just started using internet to chat with people again I was reading books and watch anime or writing for around a year...

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

It was written in a joke like way I regret doing that and I have been learning how to adapt to people here to get along the best..
I put effort into thinking about the things people post and replying when it is serious.
I aploigized I need to learn that others do not take things as I take them.

I joined here because I was looking to ctb soon and found a nice community to relate to at times with..

You don't joke like that with people you don't know very well, especially not on a suicide forum.

Why do you want to ctb?

 

[hoping to lose hope]

I assume that those people talk about their philosophy on a forum dedicated to that philosophy.

They can do but usually I would come across them online hence I thought joining a community where they interact among themselves may be useful.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

They can do but usually I would come across them online hence I thought joining a community where they interact among themselves may be useful.

Useful for what?

 

[hoping to lose hope]

Why do you want to ctb?

Ok you have asked me so many times I will shed a little bit of light and post time stamp of SN some time (when i get access to a cell phone).(for you since you ask so much)
I have mental issues that have rendered me non functional for many many years and I am sick of it.
I won't go into the rest of my story.

Useful for what?

Just understanding them I did it years ago for extreme politics.
When people have views I do not agree with I evaluate them myself and seek to understand why they think the way they do.
This goes for everything in live from creationists to whatever.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

Ok you have asked me so many times I will shed a little bit of light and post time stamp of SN some time (when i get access to a cell phone).(for you since you ask so much)
I have mental issues that have rendered me non functional for many many years and I am sick of it.
I won't go into the rest of my story.

Just understanding them I did it years ago for extreme politics.
When people have views I do not agree with I evaluate them myself and seek to understand why they think the way they do.
This goes for everything in live from creationists to whatever.

Okay, that's fair. Sorry to hear you are struggling.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

This thread is a shitshow. Maybe OP has social issues, maybe not, if I were you OP I'd stop digging this hole and abandon the thread.

Try to be a tad more considerate in the future as it seems alot of people are less than impressed.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

Maybe OP has social issues

I do I unintentionally make family members cry by being what they call "brutally honest" I try to double check whatever I post but ahhh..
It is not like I am posting edgy things like omg I am learning.

 

[Ghost2211]

I do I unintentionally make family members cry by being what they call "brutally honest" I try to double check whatever I post but ahhh..
It is not like I am posting edgy things like omg I am learning.

I am curious. Does what you call brutal honesty directed to you bother you, or is it acceptable and not bother your feelings?

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'll give you the benefit of the doubt for now I guess then. Take care.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

I am curious. Does what you call brutal honesty directed to you bother you, or is it acceptable and not bother your feelings?

I am indifferent to praise and criticism.
ONLY if I have someone I care about do I care what they think about myself in a personal way.
T. bpd/schizoid

 

[Ghost2211]

I am indifferent to praise and criticism.
ONLY if I have someone I care about do I care what they think about myself in a personal way.
T. bpd/schizoid

I see, thank you for explaining that that actually makes things make a lot more sense. You may not feel emotion behind praise and criticism but being able to see the logical chain of events between insulting someone and them feeling upset is pretty critical to fitting in socially .

 

[hoping to lose hope]

I see, thank you for explaining that that actually makes things make a lot more sense. You may not feel emotion behind praise and criticism but being able to see the logical chain of events between insulting someone and them feeling upset is pretty critical to fitting in socially .

I fully understand what is socially acceptable and I can perform to a high degree socially irl yet do not bother as friendships with meat bags and relationships have never made me feel better at all and only worse.
My problem here is that I assumed the internet culture would be more similar to anything but reddit.
I do not make the same jokes or interact the same as I would normally but then I make mistakes for not evaluating correctly just how sensitive people are.
An example is me playfully shitting on someones music tastes only to find out that it actually upset them.
Instead of saying "Your listen to faggot shit" I said "you like X -10 respect" but now I know that even toning myself down can be wrong as it is the very opinion which is offensive not how it is phrasedunless I decided to be entirely superficial and sugar coat everything.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

I fully understand what is socially acceptable and I can perform to a high degree socially irl yet do not bother as friendships with meat bags and relationships have never made me feel better at all and only worse.
My problem here is that I assumed the internet culture would be more similar to anything but reddit.
I do not make the same jokes or interact the same as I would normally but then I make mistakes for not evaluating correctly just how sensitive people are.
An example is me playfully shitting on someones music tastes only to find out that it actually upset them.
Instead of saying "Your listen to faggot shit" I said "you like X -10 respect" but now I know that even toning myself down can be wrong as it is the very opinion which is offensive not how it is phrasedunless I decided to be entirely superficial and sugar coat everything.

Christ, being kind and considerate is not superficial. You could have told them: "I do not like that music, but to each their own"; and nobody would be upset.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

You could have told them: "I do not like that music, but to each their own"; and nobody would be upset.

Yes that is the point I was trying to make I usually do that with most things..