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lamentos

lamentos

C'est la vie
Aug 10, 2023
23
You heard the question.

The first year of university was nothing but a terrible loneliness. I would see people trying not to make eye contact with me, while my high school friends would call me from time to time. I only had a few close friends, but they were so close that they knew almost everything about me. And there were a lot of other people who did their best to avoid my presence, as if I was nothing...

But why? What do I have that is too much for you? Or what am I lacking? Is my existence too heavy for you to carry? But I thought I wasn't a burden. Or do you see me as a ghost? Am I nothing?

I want my existence, my feelings, my thoughts to have a volume. I want to know that I really exist.
 
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Suspect_Device

Student
Jul 10, 2022
140
I had the same experience in college. How are there all these lame people in college that have a bunch of friends? They join a frat/sorority and have their parents pay for them. I should have done that.
 
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SaltySuh

Member
Aug 12, 2023
73
I think that most people are concerned with themselves and don't want to be involved with others.
 

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