Story Am I the only one who has a particular sad song on REPEAT all day as it sums up my mood?

[ChildrensITV]

I have periods where I listen to a few, select, sad songs as I find them weirdly cathartic. But when I am at my lowest ebb, it seems like precisely only one or two songs capture my mood perfectly. And I repeat that one or those two songs literally back to back all day. It seems like the song is a reflection of my innerfeeling. It allows my mind to stop trying to find words, as the music is speaking for me.

It feels like I am not pretending that my life can be fixed? It feel like I am owning how shit it is, I think. I can look out of the window while the music plays and just allow my body to slump into the chair. It feels like, all the time the song is being repeated, I am acknowledging what my soul was screaming out to me before I began to play the song endlessly? It's almost like the experience of listening to the song is a reply to - a handshake with - how my soul feels.






I won't waste anymore time trying to explain it. If you know, you know.

I can't do this too much longer. On the plus side, my suicide note is on page 8 and counting. I am leaving my family with a novel!

 

[lpfx]

I don't know if you could call it particularly sad, maybe more melancholic than anything, but I absolutely love playing this song when I'm feeling down.

 

[holohound]

I can heavily relate to it, I've taken to looping the same songs and roaming the city aimlessly lately. It helps distract from the thought momentarily, even as the same words start losing the meaning upon repletion. Sometimes I'll play something nostoligic and wonder how it came to this. Very good on you to leave your family with a novel haha I'm drafting something similar right now for people I will leave behind. I hope they are able to understand, and if not I hope you know that everyone here does.

 

[Unwr!tten]

Yesyesyestes

 

[ChildrensITV]

I don't know if you could call it particularly sad, maybe more melancholic than anything, but I absolutely love playing this song when I'm feeling down.

Thanks for that. I've never really listened to a Sinatra song. Certainly not one I ever liked before!