am i the only one who feels this way?

[butterfly3]

I feel so guilty for feeling this way, but these days, whenever I hear about some catastrophic event that might come near me, I cant help but be hopeful that it happens. for example, if I was to hear that an asteroid is headed towards earth, I'd honestly feel excited, because then I'd be able to die without doing it myself. I feel so guilty though, because I'm obviously not the only one it would affect. It'd affect people who actually enjoy their lives, babies, children etc. I guess I just wish I could die in other circumstances other than actually having to put in effort to ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would personally rather die at a time of my own choosing, but ctb is very difficult and I am trapped in this world as it is so hard to leave, so I do often wish I could just pass away. Every night I hope to fall asleep and never wake. I am envious of all those who no longer exist. This life is so unfair, where many people who want to live die at a young age, yet there are people like me who are stuck here who do not want to live.

 

[butterfly3]

I would personally rather die at a time of my own choosing, but ctb is very difficult and I am trapped in this world as it is so hard to leave, so I do often wish I could just pass away. Every night I hope to fall asleep and never wake. I am envious of all those who no longer exist. This life is so unfair, where many people who want to live die at a young age, yet there are people like me who are stuck here who do not want to live.

exactly. i wish there was a way that i could donate my life to someone who actually wants it, like a sick child.

 

[quediuqueque]

I feel so guilty for feeling this way, but these days, whenever I hear about some catastrophic event that might come near me, I cant help but be hopeful that it happens. for example, if I was to hear that an asteroid is headed towards earth, I'd honestly feel excited, because then I'd be able to die without doing it myself. I feel so guilty though, because I'm obviously not the only one it would affect. It'd affect people who actually enjoy their lives, babies, children etc. I guess I just wish I could die in other circumstances other than actually having to put in effort to ctb.

Yeah, now with the war in ucraine whenever i hear about the possibility of a nuclear war and people say they may drop a big bomb near us i feel exited that everything may end. And yeah when you think about it it's a pretty awful thing to say given the amount of people suffering but well, we'll all be dead by the end of the century anyways, back to being uncouncious matter as we were before being born

 

[butterfly3]

Yeah, now with the war in ucraine whenever i hear about the possibility of a nuclear war and people say they may drop a big bomb near us i feel exited that everything may end. And yeah when you think about it it's a pretty awful thing to say given the amount of people suffering but well, we'll all be dead by the end of the century anyways, back to being uncouncious matter as we were before being born

it feels so much better that I'm not the only one, I really thought it was just me.

 

[quediuqueque]

it feels so much better that I'm not the only one, I really thought it was just me.

I said something similar to my parents and they stared at me as if i was crazy

 

[I need peace]

No, you're not, specially when you know it would be bad for others, just can't help feeling this. I honestly wish something were to happen so I wouldn't need to ctb, but I understand you and I'm here if you wanna talk

 

[lostmylove]

Yeah, now with the war in ucraine whenever i hear about the possibility of a nuclear war and people say they may drop a big bomb near us i feel exited that everything may end. And yeah when you think about it it's a pretty awful thing to say given the amount of people suffering but well, we'll all be dead by the end of the century anyways, back to being uncouncious matter as we were before being born

There won't be any war in USA or mainland Europe . Prior to being so depressed I was into a lot of political science. I got books of people talking about the upcoming war since 1975. Nothing going to happen

 

[quediuqueque]

There won't be any war in USA or mainland Europe . Prior to being so depressed I was into a lot of political science. I got books of people talking about the upcoming war since 1975. Nothing going to happen

Yup, you are right

 

[Judy Garland]

I feel so guilty for feeling this way, but these days, whenever I hear about some catastrophic event that might come near me, I cant help but be hopeful that it happens. for example, if I was to hear that an asteroid is headed towards earth, I'd honestly feel excited, because then I'd be able to die without doing it myself. I feel so guilty though, because I'm obviously not the only one it would affect. It'd affect people who actually enjoy their lives, babies, children etc. I guess I just wish I could die in other circumstances other than actually having to put in effort to ctb.

These emotions are perfectly normal. Many people fantasize about an apocalypse happening, even a zombie apocalypse believe it or not. One of the reasons many people feel that is because they want change, big change. Change in the way we live our everyday life because for many, this place isn't fun. They want adventure too. We are bored on this earth. This earth is the most boring place in existence. Which is one of the reasons why I want out of here. So you are normal in feeling the yearn for an apocalypse. People won't admit it because like you, they think it's abnormal, but the truth is a lot of people want it. It's why so many apocalyptic movies and tv shows (walking dead) are popular.