I'm thinking about killing myself 24/7.
She was 40 and he was 42, everyone around them had kids, so they thought hmm, we should have a kid too, because we need to feel like a real family, so what if we are poor? What if we don't have a job? What if it's crazy bad situation in our country? Crazy bad like people starving to death. Let's have a kid, without thinking. And now I'm here male, 25, short, bald, small male part, erectile dysfunction, father died when I was 2, crazy control freak mother, bad parenting, went to school where girls and boys are in different classes, so I have a lot of anxieties with women, I'm depressed, but don't have money to see a therapist, left the job I loved to work in a field that I hate to get more money to take care of my 65 year old mother. There was 0 luck in my life. I can't enjoy anything anymore and it's getting harder and harder to get up everyday.Nitrogen exit bag sounds a good way for me. Am I just having this delusional thoughts and making it over dramatic, I don't even know anymore, sometimes I think this can't be happening to me, but there is no escape from reality. Life just gave me nothing, this is not a "gift of god", I don't want that kind of gift, please, I don't want it.
She was 40 and he was 42, everyone around them had kids, so they thought hmm, we should have a kid too, because we need to feel like a real family, so what if we are poor? What if we don't have a job? What if it's crazy bad situation in our country? Crazy bad like people starving to death. Let's have a kid, without thinking. And now I'm here male, 25, short, bald, small male part, erectile dysfunction, father died when I was 2, crazy control freak mother, bad parenting, went to school where girls and boys are in different classes, so I have a lot of anxieties with women, I'm depressed, but don't have money to see a therapist, left the job I loved to work in a field that I hate to get more money to take care of my 65 year old mother. There was 0 luck in my life. I can't enjoy anything anymore and it's getting harder and harder to get up everyday.Nitrogen exit bag sounds a good way for me. Am I just having this delusional thoughts and making it over dramatic, I don't even know anymore, sometimes I think this can't be happening to me, but there is no escape from reality. Life just gave me nothing, this is not a "gift of god", I don't want that kind of gift, please, I don't want it.
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