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Self-sabotage is something else that I've struggled with, often times out of some deep seated fear that drove me to such actions, be it because i feared the end. I agree, that's the absolute type of abandonment, when you put in so much effort for one person, you've done all that you could within your power to show them you care but then, for some reason, it isn't enough and you are replaced. This goes back to what I said about your existence actively being rejected by people who no longer see any reason to keep you around.It feels nice being understood, I'm really sorry you had to go through that. I experienced similar things, I sometimes self-sabotage my relationship by accident. I also used to be more socially inept, which caused people to dislike me. I think the worst type is when you sacrifice a lot for that one person that you care about so much, only to be replaced by someone else..