Always wishing for eternal sleep

[FuneralCry]

Eternal, permanent dreamless sleep will always be ideal and the truth is that life could never be worth it in any single way. Temporary sleep could never be enough of a relief for me as long as the chance of waking is always there. Suicide should be as straightforward as just choosing to peacefully pass away without all of the stigma, secrecy, excessive planning, research and struggle, as to die is something wonderful as it's the instant release from all misery and pain as the dead have no concerns or worries. I've always had a problem with the way that death is treated in society, it's seen as something to be feared and avoided and life is instead seen as something to be prolonged, when in fact to die is the only real relief from the prison that is existence and the burden that is consciousness.

Eternal sleep is desirable as the whole concept of life is wrong in every single way, it's nothing more than a cruel mistake, the reality is that life is completely purposeless but it does feel as though the purpose of life for humans here is to suffer as much as possible and this is emphasised by the unpredictable nature of life, we never know what awful things lie ahead on top of the current suffering that we experience. There is no value in fulfilling endless needs, doing mundane tasks all while the human body deteriorates and we age and get more tired. No matter the person and the life that they have, all that they have to look forward to is old age and then they will lose everything. This whole life experience is all for nothing and humans place so much importance on things that are essentially meaningless. So therefore I see no point to prolonging this unnecessary experience called life. There is nothing to be gained from it all, only more ways in which to suffer.

And yet humans still believe in delusions, about how existence is a positive thing and is purposeful. Ideas of hope and happiness are the most common delusions, existing only to cause humans to suffer more when they have to face reality. People see suicide as being worse than suffering but do they not realise that all of our problems die with us. I doubt that such a thing as happiness could ever possibly exist, it seems as though it's just a lie.

Such a thing as true peace could never exist in life but yet non existence is the absence of everything, meaning that it's ideal. Nothing could possibly be better than eternal sleep, and I believe any afterlife concepts to be fictional, they could never exist to me. Maybe people believe in the afterlife as they fear impermanence and being forgotten about, but yet becoming nothing is all I could ever wish for. If only leaving this world is easier.

 

[msci4499]

Wishing is useless
You can only do it with practical actions
bless you

 

[Marsh]

Eternal, permanent dreamless sleep will always be ideal and the truth is that life could never be worth it in any single way. Temporary sleep could never be enough of a relief for me as long as the chance of waking is always there. Suicide should be as straightforward as just choosing to peacefully pass away without all of the stigma, secrecy, excessive planning, research and struggle, as to die is something wonderful as it's the instant release from all misery and pain as the dead have no concerns or worries. I've always had a problem with the way that death is treated in society, it's seen as something to be feared and avoided and life is instead seen as something to be prolonged, when in fact to die is the only real relief from the prison that is existence and the burden that is consciousness.

Eternal sleep is desirable as the whole concept of life is wrong in every single way, it's nothing more than a cruel mistake, the reality is that life is completely purposeless but it does feel as though the purpose of life for humans here is to suffer as much as possible and this is emphasised by the unpredictable nature of life, we never know what awful things lie ahead on top of the current suffering that we experience. There is no value in fulfilling endless needs, doing mundane tasks all while the human body deteriorates and we age and get more tired. No matter the person and the life that they have, all that they have to look forward to is old age and then they will lose everything. This whole life experience is all for nothing and humans place so much importance on things that are essentially meaningless. So therefore I see no point to prolonging this unnecessary experience called life. There is nothing to be gained from it all, only more ways in which to suffer.

And yet humans still believe in delusions, about how existence is a positive thing and is purposeful. Ideas of hope and happiness are the most common delusions, existing only to cause humans to suffer more when they have to face reality. People see suicide as being worse than suffering but do they not realise that all of our problems die with us. I doubt that such a thing as happiness could ever possibly exist, it seems as though it's just a lie.

Such a thing as true peace could never exist in life but yet non existence is the absence of everything, meaning that it's ideal. Nothing could possibly be better than eternal sleep, and I believe any afterlife concepts to be fictional, they could never exist to me. Maybe people believe in the afterlife as they fear impermanence and being forgotten about, but yet becoming nothing is all I could ever wish for. If only leaving this world is easier.

Perfectly said it couldn't be put any better. I wish there wasn't such bad stigma surrounding death and suicide. I literally can't come out of this because I can't justify living because it's irrational.

I always see you posting but you dont have the courage to end it, it is so weird.
If you dread this so much do something.

We don't want SI but unfortunately it's programmed into us and there's no way around it. Si can make you do weird stuff even involuntary things..... Maybe he has tried

 

[almaranthine]

The delusions are hardwired into our biology... to hope, to try to find purpose, to justify our very existence and continue it. It's a cruel fact of human nature. I'm happy that I will never be bringing in any beings to suffer this existence. I had one abortion years ago and it was the best decision I ever made. I was so poor and could barely afford to make rent that month. I spared someone from being born and having to live a shitty life (it would have been especially shitty given the circumstances). I envy that non-person to be quite honest. I look forward to the day I become nothing. Knowing that I will die is the one thing that brings me some peace here in this prisonscape.

 

[Marsh]

The delusions are hardwired into our biology... to hope, to try to find purpose, to justify our very existence and continue it. It's a cruel fact of human nature. I'm happy that I will never be bringing in any beings to suffer this existence. I had one abortion years ago and it was the best decision I ever made. I was so poor and could barely afford to make rent that month. I spared someone from being born and having to live a shitty life (it would have been especially shitty given the circumstances). I envy that non-person to be quite honest. I look forward to the day I become nothing. Knowing that I will die is the one thing that brings me some peace here in this prisonscape.

Glad to see that there's others out there doing some good. I haven't gotten a woman pregnant and never plan to I just hope nothing wack happens before I get the hell out of here like gf getting pregnant and keeping it or something oh man poor kid I would just be so angry at myself. I'd never want to put another living being through this life and I've had a rough one full of drug withdrawal and violence.

 

[almaranthine]

Glad to see that there's others out there doing some good. I haven't gotten a woman pregnant and never plan to I just hope nothing wack happens before I get the hell out of here like gf getting pregnant and keeping it or something oh man poor kid I would just be so angry at myself. I'd never want to put another living being through this life and I've had a rough one full of drug withdrawal and violence.

That particular child would have been a result of sexual abuse... I can't imagine having a child grow up and realize that. The thought is so horrible. Plus, with my mental issues combined with the would-have-been father's that kid would have been screwed from the very beginning... it baffles me that people out there would really try to argue with me that I made the wrong choice. I'm sorry your life has been filled with so much suffering. I wish you peace

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Maybe he has tried

She

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

i wish there was a button we could press to end it forever

 

[gimzero]

This is death and you juat freezing in time and who knows who dreaming!

 

[ClownMe]

The delusions are hardwired into our biology... to hope, to try to find purpose, to justify our very existence and continue it. It's a cruel fact of human nature. I'm happy that I will never be bringing in any beings to suffer this existence. I had one abortion years ago and it was the best decision I ever made. I was so poor and could barely afford to make rent that month. I spared someone from being born and having to live a shitty life (it would have been especially shitty given the circumstances). I envy that non-person to be quite honest. I look forward to the day I become nothing. Knowing that I will die is the one thing that brings me some peace here in this prisonscape.

Yep, society and our brains manipulate us into thinking this existence is worth living when in reality, it isn't. This life is a completely meaningless scam, were born to die meaning literally nothing in our lifetime actually matters. It's not just us humans either, it's all forms of life on this shitshow of a planet (and potentially planets in distant galaxies which we will never reach). It's good to see a large contingency of antinatalists on here, I would never under any circumstances bring life into this world, because as I said, we simply DON'T NEED TO BE HERE.

 

[Forever Sleep]

True, we have a very negative view of death. Largely I think because there is so much uncertainty about what comes after. Always found the Aztec civilisation fascinating. Understandable that we would be horrified at the sight of hunan sacrifice but for them, death was simply a door to another world- presumably better than this one. Although I appreciate that would be no comfort to you.

I'd hate to think that our purpose is to suffer but I can't really argue with it. If there is a God, I feel like they do want and intend us to suffer. I think the majority of people try to find their purpose in things that reduce the suffering- although- once again, I have to agree- it's a bitter sweet pill because just about everything is stripped away from us in the end.

 

[makethepainstop]

And now you guys know why when seeing an ancient Egyptian mummy, I feel envy! I always thought if one could bring a mummy back to life for a minute, and asked them to you want to live again....the mummy would quickly look around, scream fuck this, and quickly re die!

 

[Marsh]

That particular child would have been a result of sexual abuse... I can't imagine having a child grow up and realize that. The thought is so horrible. Plus, with my mental issues combined with the would-have-been father's that kid would have been screwed from the very beginning... it baffles me that people out there would really try to argue with me that I made the wrong choice. I'm sorry your life has been filled with so much suffering. I wish you peace

I'm a rape baby said my mom who I just lost recently but my "dad" was her pimp and definitely the dad to my siblings but I don't think me. I think I could just be a product of a transaction for sex.... Pretty awful knowing that's why I'm here because of something just horrible. I think it's made me weird in a way im like a prude to some I'm just very against rapey men but to a extreme and extremes are never good.

So yeah if they came to know that it would be hard I know

 

[PressEnterToExit]

Eternal, permanent dreamless sleep will always be ideal and the truth is that life could never be worth it in any single way. Temporary sleep could never be enough of a relief for me as long as the chance of waking is always there. Suicide should be as straightforward as just choosing to peacefully pass away without all of the stigma, secrecy, excessive planning, research and struggle, as to die is something wonderful as it's the instant release from all misery and pain as the dead have no concerns or worries. I've always had a problem with the way that death is treated in society, it's seen as something to be feared and avoided and life is instead seen as something to be prolonged, when in fact to die is the only real relief from the prison that is existence and the burden that is consciousness.

Eternal sleep is desirable as the whole concept of life is wrong in every single way, it's nothing more than a cruel mistake, the reality is that life is completely purposeless but it does feel as though the purpose of life for humans here is to suffer as much as possible and this is emphasised by the unpredictable nature of life, we never know what awful things lie ahead on top of the current suffering that we experience. There is no value in fulfilling endless needs, doing mundane tasks all while the human body deteriorates and we age and get more tired. No matter the person and the life that they have, all that they have to look forward to is old age and then they will lose everything. This whole life experience is all for nothing and humans place so much importance on things that are essentially meaningless. So therefore I see no point to prolonging this unnecessary experience called life. There is nothing to be gained from it all, only more ways in which to suffer.

And yet humans still believe in delusions, about how existence is a positive thing and is purposeful. Ideas of hope and happiness are the most common delusions, existing only to cause humans to suffer more when they have to face reality. People see suicide as being worse than suffering but do they not realise that all of our problems die with us. I doubt that such a thing as happiness could ever possibly exist, it seems as though it's just a lie.

Such a thing as true peace could never exist in life but yet non existence is the absence of everything, meaning that it's ideal. Nothing could possibly be better than eternal sleep, and I believe any afterlife concepts to be fictional, they could never exist to me. Maybe people believe in the afterlife as they fear impermanence and being forgotten about, but yet becoming nothing is all I could ever wish for. If only leaving this world is easier.

I wake up in the morning feeling like this.. But I try to think about ctb like a nice travel I have to prepare, and getting excited for it and trying to enjoy the best I can my last days. I feel better taking care of me and my home before the moments comes, I prefer and trying thinking like this cause I've been sad for all my life and I don't wanna feel bad anymore. Maybe suicide is some kind of occult blessing only for some people like us. Just think about all the people who is miserable and will never be free. They will never have the enough courage to leave or even think about it.
So we are blessed cause we see the truth, and we won't spend the rest of our life's suffering. The worst has already passed out. This is the end and the end is good.