Venting Always a new rock bottom

[conveniently_dead]

Do you ever find yourself reaching new rock bottoms and levels of despair you didn't think were possible? The amount of suffering I'm enduring is not something I would ever accept for my life.

Yet I'm still here. And I have a feeling I haven't seen the worst of it. I think there's more suffering in my future that I can't even imagine that is just waiting for me.

I feel like I'm starting to mentally snap over time because of this weight. I've had some really intense outbursts (one got me put in the psych ward).

I hope I am granted MAID if the law is passed next year. I have to hold onto that hope that there's some end in sight for me.

 

[The Burning Fool]

It's so sad that you're not granted a way out, and feel like you're about to snap because of that. My heart goes out to you.

 

[trove1080p]

I feel like this too and I'm sorry you're going thru this. But I really appreciate you sharing this because it somehow helps to know I'm not alone in the depths.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

In my mind, I always have the feeling that things will get worse, before they get even more worse. It's almost at the point that I want it to get worse, to see how much I can take. MAID would at least give most of us the option to go when the time is right.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really terrifying and repulsive how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence, it's a reason as to why I'd prefer to peacefully not exist under every circumstance. I don't even believe rock bottom could ever exist, there is always unlimited potential for existing to get much more torturous, existing just fills me with dread.

But anyway I hope that you eventually find what you search for, it's inhumane how the option of legalised assisted suicide isn't already avaliable for us all, such a thing would prevent so much unnecessary suffering.