Almost finished with my lengthy suicide note

[StateOfMind]

It will be a scheduled email to around 500 contacts (random people and companies, various news outlets, activists, film-makers and civil liberty groups) detailing my persecution.

I'm hoping to achieve some social good by sparking a debate about illegal and unethical surveillance and modern day Stasi terror.
Not sure how much impact it will actually have but its better than not trying at all.
One person on SS has already shown interest - I'm trying to reach as many people as possible.

But yeah, if you are interested pm me your email, you will receive it about an hour after my death.
I would like to publish it before my death on SS but can't because it includes allot of sensitive details, my identity, names and the contacts of my enemies etc.

Feels kind of strange promoting my own suicide note lol

 

[Spitfire]

I think it sounds like a nice plan, actually, and I have definitely thought about doing something similar.

If I have to kill myself...

 

[StateOfMind]

Something I'm sill not sure about. Should I set all the contacts as Bcc so no one can see who else received to email or should I just do it normal so everyone can see everyone?

 

[Spitfire]

Good question, right?

I was not going to ask you to email it to me personally. If you go through with this as planned by the note.. I hope to see it posted here by other members to be able and see it and read it.

I hope it accomplishes at least partially some of your goal to help others.

 

[blue_muse]

Full of admiration for you to put yourself out there like that StateOfMind, at the same time full of sorrow that so-called humans have pushed you to this point. I'm familiar with your posts from my lurking days. Personally would opt for the Bcc option .

 

[Life_and_Death]

Something I'm sill not sure about. Should I set all the contacts as Bcc so no one can see who else received to email or should I just do it normal so everyone can see everyone?

I think you should set it as bcc

 

[StateOfMind]

Ok, so now I have four more people from the SS community who are interested in my note. When I die and don't post anymore (more than three days) you will know that the email has somehow been stopped from being sent posthumously.

 

[Makko]

You could set your original intended contacts as visible copies, for maximum exposure, and members from here as secret copies to avoid drawing attention to them specifically.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Oh wow that's a hell of a letter to send out. But I think blanketing it like you plan works well. I hope it opens eyes

 

[StateOfMind]

You could set your original intended contacts as visible copies, for maximum exposure, and members from here as secret copies to avoid drawing attention to them specifically.

Maybe I will try this.

 

[booray]

Still going by the train method?

 

[Aloken]

So you aren't going to clean your pc? I'm only asking because I too want to send a delayed email, but I also want to clean my laptop

 

[GarageKarate07]

It will be a scheduled email to around 500 contacts (random people and companies, various news outlets, activists, film-makers and civil liberty groups) detailing my persecution.

I'm hoping to achieve some social good by sparking a debate about illegal and unethical surveillance and modern day Stasi terror.
Not sure how much impact it will actually have but its better than not trying at all.
One person on SS has already shown interest - I'm trying to reach as many people as possible.

But yeah, if you are interested pm me your email, you will receive it about an hour after my death.
I would like to publish it before my death on SS but can't because it includes allot of sensitive details, my identity, names and the contacts of my enemies etc.

Feels kind of strange promoting my own suicide note lol

I'm almost ready as well. I'm sad but I'm not. So did you find the right tracks then? You feel fit that your homework paid off?

 

[StateOfMind]

Still going by the train method?

Yes.

So you aren't going to clean your pc? I'm only asking because I too want to send a delayed email, but I also want to clean my laptop

No, I don't really see the point. But maybe I'm missing something.

 

[UterEntonaur]

It will be a scheduled email to around 500 contacts...

I hope you're using a mailing-list service or something, cos sending an email to that many contacts via a free personal service (e.g. hotmail, gmail, yahoo, etc), might not send and fail (or be marked as spam)

 

[StateOfMind]

I hope you're using a mailing-list service or something, cos sending an email to that many contacts via a free personal service (e.g. hotmail, gmail, yahoo, etc), might not send and fail (or be marked as spam)

This was a fear in the back of my mind. Years ago sent a similar e-mail that arrived but not as many people as this. What would you suggest?

 

[UterEntonaur]

This was a fear in the back of my mind. Years ago sent a similar e-mail that arrived but not as many people as this. What would you suggest?

Sadly I don't think there is an easy option - which is why most spam mail is sent via vulnerable servers/mail relays.

I've used stuff like MailGun before for work, but from what I remember, they all require the recipients to subscribe first (your 500 contacts would need to be "invited" first, and click on the "invite link", to confirm that they wish to subscribe to your mailing list - and this was all before GDPR).

I don't know how feasible it is for you to shrink the number of recipients down, have other people send on your behalf (like chain-mail), or even post a copy on your social media if you use any (or even chan sites as a last resort), but I'm sorry that I don't have a solution or any other suggestions friend

 

[StateOfMind]

Sadly I don't think there is an easy option - which is why most spam mail is sent via vulnerable servers/mail relays.

I've used stuff like MailGun before for work, but from what I remember, they all require the recipients to subscribe first (your 500 contacts would need to be "invited" first, and click on the "invite link", to confirm that they wish to subscribe to your mailing list - and this was all before GDPR).

I don't know how feasible it is for you to shrink the number of recipients down, have other people send on your behalf (like chain-mail), or even post a copy on your social media if you use any (or even chan sites as a last resort), but I'm sorry that I don't have a solution or any other suggestions friend

Sure, thanks for your input mate :)
In the meanwhile I trimmed the contacts down to around 450 and removed some that look "spammy" and others that are not really relevant.
Most of the e-mails are actual contacts that I have conversed with in the past and only about 50 new ones.

I'm almost ready as well. I'm sad but I'm not. So did you find the right tracks then? You feel fit that your homework paid off?

Not quite sure what you mean. Yes I think so. Just battling with SI now.

 

[StateOfMind]

I'm telling you this suicide note is risky business. Almost forgot to cancel the send lol
If this note gets out before my death its a one-way ticket into indefinite psych-ward.
Another downside with such an endeavor is the prevailing urge to perfect the note when you know how much is at stake which is not good for SI.
So far I have been able to elaborate to further my agenda and accumulate more "potent" contacts.
I guess this will go on for as long as SI wins.
But this will pass soon because I'm already getting tired of writing this shit lol

 

[wordsonscreen]

Ok, so now I have four more people from the SS community who are interested in my note. When I die and don't post anymore (more than three days) you will know that the email has somehow been stopped from being sent posthumously.

Send it from 2 emails and 2 platforms to make sure at least 1 succeeds.

There are apps you can connect to IG that will post stuff pre planned- upload the letter to a hosting platform and share link on ig etc
Lots of dark web spaces too fyi
There are many drop boxes. Did you check the hidden wiki?

 

[Makko]

Here's an example from how Outlook works. The limit seems to be 500 recipients per message so it should go out. You might want to contact your email service provider and ask this question to make sure of the maximum number of recipients. it's normal to have many recipients when sending out certain business or research emails so it's not a suspicious question. When a senior colleague quit last year I had to send an email to her 300+ clients and had no issue, didn't even realise there was a maximum number.

Sending limits in Outlook.com - Microsoft Support

Learn about daily sending limits in your Outlook.com email account.

support.microsoft.com

 

[StateOfMind]

Send it from 2 emails and 2 platforms to make sure at least 1 succeeds.

There are apps you can connect to IG that will post stuff pre planned- upload the letter to a hosting platform and share link on ig etc
Lots of dark web spaces too fyi
There are many drop boxes. Did you check the hidden wiki?

Pardon my ignorance, but i didn't understand most of your acronyms.
I'm trying to keep things as simple as possible because I'm opting for ctb every evening.
Set schedule and cancel in case of failure.

 

[wordsonscreen]

Pardon my ignorance, but i didn't understand most of your acronyms.
I'm trying to keep things as simple as possible because I'm opting for ctb every evening.
Set schedule and cancel in case of failure.

No no its okay I can explain :)
Instagram has apps that can schedule posts ahead of time
There are also VERY secure drop boxes on the dark web (use tor to access the hidden wiki for links) for journalists, hackers, activists etc which might be helpful for you to explore

And simplicity is good! Using multiple emails to send the letter has the benefit that at least one will go through spam filters maybe

 

[StateOfMind]

No no its okay I can explain :)
Instagram has apps that can schedule posts ahead of time
There are also VERY secure drop boxes on the dark web (use tor to access the hidden wiki for links) for journalists, hackers, activists etc which might be helpful for you to explore

And simplicity is good! Using multiple emails to send the letter has the benefit that at least one will go through spam filters maybe

Regarding the dark web method. I wouldn't even know where to begin.. can you provide some examples of how this would work?
Out of fear of being spam I culled my mailing list down to 189 so now all the contacts are of more relevance and potent, including the 5 SS members.

 

[Makko]

Regarding the dark web method. I wouldn't even know where to begin.. can you provide some examples of how this would work?
Out of fear of being spam I culled my mailing list down to 189 so now all the contacts are of more relevance and potent, including the 5 SS members.

Read my post above. Just message your email service provider and ask what the limit is. Anything under that limit will be sent without a hitch.

 

[wordsonscreen]

Regarding the dark web method. I wouldn't even know where to begin.. can you provide some examples of how this would work?
Out of fear of being spam I culled my mailing list down to 189 so now all the contacts are of more relevance and potent, including the 5 SS members.

I guess you can start by downloading tor and exploring the hidden wiki (look it up on duckduckgo). There is too much for me to type out tbh but there is A TON of incredible information for activists on the dark web- blogs, drop boxes, chat rooms, guides. I have not really found that stuff on clearnet. Just be careful and dont click on weird shit. Use VPN, cover your camera- usual precautions. I guess my suggestion is to explore that area because I have a feeling it will be valuable for you. The clearnet is only like 5-10% of the internet- most of the web is not crawlable :p But its not important either!! emailing directly will work to accomplish your goals too :)

 

[StateOfMind]

I guess you can start by downloading tor and exploring the hidden wiki (look it up on duckduckgo). There is too much for me to type out tbh but there is A TON of incredible information for activists on the dark web- blogs, drop boxes, chat rooms, guides. I have not really found that stuff on clearnet. Just be careful and dont click on weird shit. Use VPN, cover your camera- usual precautions. I guess my suggestion is to explore that area because I have a feeling it will be valuable for you. The clearnet is only like 5-10% of the internet- most of the web is not crawlable :p But its not important either!! emailing directly will work to accomplish your goals too :)

Thanks for the heads up. Seems a bit complicated though so might just stick with the classic email. Maybe I'm just not seeing the benefit?
It was tough enough sifting through the clear net just to get the emails of people who might be interested.
Back up to 234.

 

[wordsonscreen]

Thanks for the heads up. Seems a bit complicated though so might just stick with the classic email. Maybe I'm just not seeing the benefit?
It was tough enough sifting through the clear net just to get the emails of people who might be interested.
Back up to 234.

I support you <3 I can imagine this being hard enough already. Do whatever is right for you!

 

[Makko]

As long as you respect the maximum amount of your email providers spam filters won't activate. They will only activate if you send many emails in rapid succession, an/or if your account had previous suspicious activity. If you get confirmation that X amount of recipients is the maximum then you should max it out for best exposure.

 

[StateOfMind]

As long as you respect the maximum amount of your email providers spam filters won't activate. They will only activate if you send many emails in rapid succession, an/or if your account had previous suspicious activity. If you get confirmation that X amount of recipients is the maximum then you should max it out for best exposure.

I'm using gmail BCC I think the max is 2k?

I'm not getting any wiser based on this information:

gmail max email recipients - Google Search