6ixxy
I sank so she could swim
- Apr 26, 2019
- 273
It's got to the point recently where all of my thoughts, regardless of my situation, whether I'm happy or laughing are massively overwhelmed by my suicidal thoughts.
I'm literally longing and aching for the day my end comes.
I went to a comedy show last night and for all that it was hilarious and I still enjoyed myself, throughout the whole night I couldn't help but think of the day I go, is this normal? I've never felt so strongly about it as I have done recently, to me this feels like it's finally the real deal, no more fucking about.
I don't even feel slightly guilty about the people I'm leaving behind, or anxious or anything really.
when my life has come to the point where I can't have a good time without having intrusive & morbid thoughts, I think it's a sign that my time is almost here & I'm okay with that.
I'm literally longing and aching for the day my end comes.
I went to a comedy show last night and for all that it was hilarious and I still enjoyed myself, throughout the whole night I couldn't help but think of the day I go, is this normal? I've never felt so strongly about it as I have done recently, to me this feels like it's finally the real deal, no more fucking about.
I don't even feel slightly guilty about the people I'm leaving behind, or anxious or anything really.
when my life has come to the point where I can't have a good time without having intrusive & morbid thoughts, I think it's a sign that my time is almost here & I'm okay with that.
