Venting Ahhhhhhh

[ImNotReal]

I feel like shit I thought I was getting better but NOOOOOO, I'm stuck at work with the worst fucking headspace I've been in months and I'm stuck talking to mean belittling customers for the next 5 hours. I think I'm gonna order my SN once I get paid Tuesday. I really really tried to feel better and not feel the need for it but. Well y'know lol. I just want to scream at everyone I NEED to kill myselfv I'm sick of feeling like a fucking monster

 

[cme-dme]

I feel this 100%. It takes weeks or months for things to improve but a single bad day is all it takes to bring you back to where you started. How other people get themselves out of this hole is a mystery to me. I'm sorry you're struggling.