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Random Username

Random Username

Gear Head
Sep 10, 2023
75
Around what age do you not intend to make it past? I plan to ctb before I reach 30, regardless of future circumstances.
 
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hikikomorizombie

hikikomorizombie

Ouch
Jan 15, 2024
785
hoping i don't make it past my next bday🧸so 22.
 
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Final_Choice

Final_Choice

Mage
Aug 3, 2023
542
25 is my hard cut off. Though I'm planning on doing it within this or next year when I'm 21.
 
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computersrfun

computersrfun

Just a funny girl
Feb 26, 2024
22
25, and I just turned 24. I've gotta move quickly!!
 
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ObssessedEirika

ObssessedEirika

“I’m so damn tired.”
Jan 7, 2024
26
Gotta say 25-27.
 
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Lavínia

Lavínia

plalace
Feb 19, 2024
147
If i succeed, 22. Can't imagine more time than that
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,913
I'm 36 I don't want to live past 40
. In my 20s I thought 30 was old, it's not.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
I'm 23 and I don't want to live past 25. That's my maximum exit point. I didn't even want to live past 18, but I didn't do anything about it. I'll make sure to do something about it this time around.
 
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Dliena

Dliena

𝚂𝚂 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝙽𝚘. 43,53?
Dec 22, 2023
1,888
Prob 24/25 for me but anything can happen so who knows.
 
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fishygirl

fishygirl

in the end, nothing matters
Sep 17, 2023
203
31-35 maybe. it depends
 
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lemonbunny

lemonbunny

daydreaming the pain away ☆.。.:*・°
Sep 9, 2023
245
im also marking 30. hopefully i've had everything set in place by then
 
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thinvy

thinvy

Woefully Yours, Luka
Aug 7, 2023
221
27. not cause I care about the 27 club or anything like that. Hell, I didn't even know what it was until my sister's friend said something about it once AGES ago.
I've just drifted through life way longer than I ever anticipated I even could, and now that the opportunity is there, why not take it lol
also I just refuse to live a full extra year more. I'm already pushing myself to make it this far. I've had close calls this week where if I hadn't had to worry about paying off my life insurance for the month, I probably would've offed myself lol
 
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Return2themoonlight

Return2themoonlight

Sele'ne shall guide me to peace and tranquility
Dec 31, 2023
153
I honestly dont want to see or make it too my 27th birthday next month.... But life and this wicked world always find a way to make you stick around longer than what you want or expect.😤😓😓
 
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maidens

maidens

" more dead than alive, I endure it "
Aug 27, 2023
143
i'm 100% not living past 25 lol, I'd be surprised if I even got there
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,482
I don't know because I'm waiting on my Dad to go first. You're all making me feel very old though... I'm already 44! No one here seems to want to hang on that long even... I don't blame you.

I suppose honestly though, living even 5 more years looks like a vertical cliff face with no places to grip.
 
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TiredOfAllThis

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2024
453
One one side I still have a tiny bit of hope and my cats - on the other one constant anxiety is a torture: likely won't live until the end of this year.
 
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notindanger

notindanger

Experienced
Oct 7, 2023
223
25 for sure. I meant to do it before I turned 15, but well, something didnt work out.
 
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silent.desperation

silent.desperation

Member
Jan 9, 2024
81
I'm also a dinosaur at 43. My feelings toward CTB change (with my moods) but any time from now until 50 seems likely.
Ask me tomorrow and I may say 44, which is only a few months away so we'll see!
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,403
I was so sure I'd want to CTB by 30 but sadly I just couldn't. First I wanted to CTB at 28 but then things got in the way and I spent my 29th year procrastinating and now I'm 30.
 
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tbroken

tbroken

Wizard
Feb 22, 2024
690
I'll be 33 soon, but I hope to don't reach them.
 
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Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
Not past 62. Birthday in July I'll be h one before then
 
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Lost Impact

Lost Impact

A Singular Atonement
Oct 31, 2023
269
When I was younger, my plan ws before 16 (which seemed to be the common age to ctb in my old friendgroup), repeated failed attempts and procrastination a decade later I don't know. I don't want to make it past the next few months. I don't want to live to see 32... It's painful to think about. Just... wasting more time. I'm just waiting for things to get worse and worse until I finally just can't take it anymore. There's so much planning that goes into it...

When I was 21, I was so sure it was time and I didn't want one of my friends to be lonely so I introduced them into my other friendgroup and they hit it off pretty well. I think they're still friends today (I'm not with either anymore because of circumstances...). Another failed attempt. It's shameful.
 
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Umacon

Member
Jan 20, 2024
81
Ι will be 44 in 3 months. I want CTB before reaching 45
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,938
I know that I've already suffered for far too long in this existence, even one second of being burdened with this existence is one second too long, only never existing is perfection to me as I don't wish to suffer in any way, only never existing is the true way to avoid suffering.

23 years is such an incredibly long time and I don't know how long this will continue, not everyone is privileged enough to be able to permanently free themselves from this cruel and futile existence at any moment. The absence of peaceful ways to find true peace from all the suffering existing causes truly is tragic, the fact that suicide is cruelly made so inaccessible just leads to way more harm.
 
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Linda

Linda

Member
Jul 30, 2020
2,164
I don't really see the point in setting any particular age as a deadline. If life really is intolerable now, then why wait? If it's not intolerable, why do you suppose that it will suddenly become intolerable when you reach some particular birthday. My experience has been that in most respects life becomes easier to manage as you get older.
 
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Silent Raindrops

Silent Raindrops

The Darkness Awaits Me
Feb 3, 2024
263
I just turned 54 yesterday, I have no intention of living through the month of March.
 
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heisenberg

heisenberg

zzzzzzz
May 18, 2020
208
im probably not making it past 21.
 
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Akaraine

Akaraine

I want NOTHINGNESS.
Nov 23, 2023
7
I want to ctb before this April.
 
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strangelife

strangelife

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
364
41, I think it's not enough, but my illness…
 
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