ivzxkou
finding new ways to feel empty
- Apr 1, 2023
- 27
i don't know what will happen. i hope it's nothing. what's the point in ctb if i have to life another life after this.
So is your Christianity preventing you ctb? I also was raised Christian, and yeah I've been told its hell for suicide. I hope I can be forgiven, but I sometimes worry I will go to a worse place. My dogs would be hurt and my family devastated but I can't go on like this, so many challenges and I'm losing my mind.I am a Christian so I definitely believe in an afterlife. I was always taught that there was an afterlife, and I never knew anyone personally who did not believe in one. That is, until I came to this forum. I never heard of this "nothingness" until I came here and could not figure out why. I now realize the reason. In Christianity, it is taught that suicide is a sin. Therefore, I am one of the few Christians on this forum which is dominated by atheists. I personally believe that there is a wonderful afterlife that awaits us all. The idea of nothingness scares the hell out of me. If someone here were to convince me of this nothingness, I would no longer be suicidal, and that also scares the hell out of me since I would have to continue living this horrible life.
SameAll this to say, I used to be scared but I'm not anymore of the wrath of a god, I look forward to the process everyone will face.
I'm suicidal, very likely to CTB soon, but I still believe that Jesus Christ is Lord.I used to be a Christian and have an old suicide letter where I said I deserve to go to hell and it's where I belong. I'm an athiest now and it's really comforting to believe that there is nothing after death, just the sweet void of nonexistence
That's an interesting idea! There's this really cool youtube video that poses life as a kind of "egg" in which our soul grows and develops until we're mature enough to experience the world beyond planet Earth.I'm somewhat convinced there's nothing after death. I'm also somewhat convinced there has to be something because this universe is too wonderfully complex and big and rich to be simply a spawn of pure chance and random events.
My secret wish, though, is that after death we are free to roam without any bad feelings as invisible spirits, with no restrictions of physics laws. That way, I could travel across the universe in an instant to see all the stars, nebulas and other beautiful things without thinking about everything I've suffered. Just contemplate the beauty of existence in pure bliss.
I love astronomy, if you couldn't tell.