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Emerita

Emerita

the look of death
Jan 16, 2025
309
I was just thinking how the world will continue to change, and thats enticing—not that I want to be there to experience it, but knowing that life will go on after I'm gone brings me comfort. Flowers will bloom, trees will lose their leaves, snow will fall, and the sun will rise and set. Time will pass, and I won't be part of it. Bees will buzz, birds will sing, art will be created, stories will be told, and children will play. There will be a "today" that I am not a part of, and I find that relieving! It's not a sad feeling; rather, it's more of a fondness. I only feel this positivity when I don't imagine myself apart of it. Does anyone else feel this way? I know this mood will pass, and I will be feel the pain and grief of life again, but thought I'd share. Sorry hopefully I don't seem crazy.
 
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Crow_88

Crow_88

Specialist
Dec 30, 2024
371
That gave me a feeling of peace. Of the beauty of life. Just because I can't be part of it here doesn't mean I don't have a fondness for it. Or that I look forward to my spirit resting in the love that is life.
 
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Haematemesis

Student
Jan 12, 2025
190
i think the opposite way
the universe began when i first gained consciousness and will end when i lose it.
 
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kimcoffee_

kimcoffee_

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Mar 7, 2025
56
The world goes on but so does the pain and suffring. You just get to be free of it and thats the real joy.
 
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Coin

When will tomorrow be better?
Apr 6, 2023
33
I have previously considered life after my death but have primarily focused on the negatives: the issues I would like to be free of. Your point of view of admiring the beauty as well is one that I have not considered before. If I am as poisonous to those around me as I believe, the world might even be better. Thank you for your insight.
 
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gothbird

gothbird

𝙿𝚘𝚎𝚝 𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕
Mar 16, 2025
494
I think the most beautiful thing about leaving the world behind is that when it ends for me, and the world does keep spinning, there will nothing for me to mourn or feel. No longer will I feel the weight of a declining world, nor the pressures that come with it. It will simply be nothing and I would have just been a passing something just as all those before. It brings me comfort knowing I cannot be around to feel the aftermath of my leaving, but that the lives of those who wish to exist will be able to continue on.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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i think the opposite way
the universe began when i first gained consciousness and will end when i lose it.
"the universe began when i first gained consciousness and will end when i lose it". It will be like that to myself, the universe and i will cease to exist forever to me 1 micro-second after my brain dies
 
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onlyformyself

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Mar 18, 2025
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Life goes on for everybody
 
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particularrodent

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Jan 4, 2025
79
ive been thinking about this too, but it makes me sad, because i wish my life was beautiful, and that i could be a part of all of these good things. i was born after all, why do i have to be so insignificant? why cant we all matter in these things?
 
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Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
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The world doesn't stop because you're gone . People will be good and evil without you. Other people will Ctb after you , children will be born without you and people will live there lives without you.
Existence will still be here you just will not.