Do you consume more or less since you've been wanting to ctb? On one hand I want to consume more because I don't know when all of this this may end. On the other hand, the more I consume, the more attachment I may feel towards this planet and I will stay longer here because of that. By consuming I mean for example media consumption: playing games, watching movies, etc. But it can also be related to consuming other stuff, like smoking, drinking a lot of coffee etc. Whatever makes your dopamine go up, even if only for a moment.
It's like prolonging the inevitable. It's like all of this is just one big cope. It's like I've been occupied with something since I was born just to distract myself from original thoughts of not wanting to be here.
Anyone can relate? What's your approach?
It's like prolonging the inevitable. It's like all of this is just one big cope. It's like I've been occupied with something since I was born just to distract myself from original thoughts of not wanting to be here.
Anyone can relate? What's your approach?
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