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Wearethedisease
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- Sep 27, 2020
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I often take drug mixes, I used to be an addict then I guess some would say I still am, although I have plenty of pills I just done have them often or when I do I don't really have many, I just take them as and when I feel like it. Today I feel particularly shit. I will say in the past I've taken intentional overdoses of way more than this and not even ended up in hospital, but that may have been because at the time I was on them virtually constantly so my tolerance was high. But after taking a few hundred mg of tramadol, 20mg of morphine sulfate, 5 (apparent, but not confirmed because they are not prescription and not in packaging) 10mg valiums, one legitimate prescripion 10mg valium, 2 40mg prescription beta blocker and 2mg xanax I am feeling very different to how I usually do, a lot more slowed breathing and a lot more tire.d But I guess that is to be expected? This is not an attempt I just sometimes go for it if I've had a bad day and not usually caring about the consequences, but now I have made a definite decision to end my life in the near future, I want it prepared. I have a plan and there isa lot needed doing before I do it. This is not a cry for help in the way you might think, I'm just kind of concerned that I may end up accidentally overdosing when I in no way want it to go down this way. I need everything ready.
Do you think it's worth making myself sick or just makign sure I stay alert and awake and keep an eye on myself? I am 99% sure I'll be okay but I have a real fear of impulsively doing it or dying prematurely to when I'm completely ready. Advice? It's been about half an hour.
Do you think it's worth making myself sick or just makign sure I stay alert and awake and keep an eye on myself? I am 99% sure I'll be okay but I have a real fear of impulsively doing it or dying prematurely to when I'm completely ready. Advice? It's been about half an hour.