addicted to sh

[ayla]

used to only sh when suuuuuper depressed now i just do it so mindlessly like its not even a coping method to me anymore its full on apart of my everyday routine i legit sleep with razors under my pillow. i do it when im bored, before bed, the second i open my eyes, every single time i get up from bed to do anything im just like oops i almost forgot haha! in school it would almost be my turn for presentation and id ask to go to the bathroom just to cut like it was some pick me up. :c

i dont need deep cuts or multiple at a time anymore im fine with one light cut but obviously throughout the day it stacks up. ugh im doomed

 

[daisyrandone]

not as intense but i was the same way last year. i would wake up and cut, move on with my day, cut before heading to sleep. i think i might've been a little influenced to do it by twitter at one point, but eventually i was just doing it out of habit, which progressed into an addiction. awful thing to deal with.

 

[JoysoftheEmptiness]

So long as I see blood, I'm happy, but I do like to cut a bit deeper on times, depends on my moods. deepest cuts are on my legs.

 

[fleetingnight]

I relate to this. It feels weird if I go a few days without doing it, almost like part of me is missing. I'm sorry things turned out like this

 

[AwakeTooLong]

used to only sh when suuuuuper depressed now i just do it so mindlessly like its not even a coping method to me anymore its full on apart of my everyday routine i legit sleep with razors under my pillow. i do it when im bored, before bed, the second i open my eyes, every single time i get up from bed to do anything im just like oops i almost forgot haha! in school it would almost be my turn for presentation and id ask to go to the bathroom just to cut like it was some pick me up. :c

i dont need deep cuts or multiple at a time anymore im fine with one light cut but obviously throughout the day it stacks up. ugh im doomed

How do you hide all those cuts/scars? Do you bother to?

 

[ChronicAnamnesis]

would do it alot more if i lived alone. too risky to do it too much since getting revealed is my actual worst nightmare. that would be my sign to ctb ASAP!

 

[ayla]

How do you hide all those cuts/scars? Do you bother to?

i cover up a lot bc im anemic and always cold loll so family dont rly question it

 

[ladylazarus4]

I used to be like this especially during lockdown 2020-2021. Now, I do very deep cuts 1-2x per month and I can't decide which I'd rather... I guess cutting constantly suck because it's so time consuming but infrequent deep cuts suck because I feel like I have to "make the most" of it and also they are hard to heal, weep fluid through my clothing, and cause nerve damage sooo... sh sucks.

 

[LXR515]

I feel that sometimes when it would get really really bad in my life. It would literally just become part of my routine and even if I didn't feel like cutting I would do it anyway just to remotely feel anything or numb the boredom of life.

 

[Wolf Girl]

I hate how there's nothing that feels quite like self-harm. Idk what to replace it with.