With the outcome of my housing issue looking really bleak I'm going to probably ctb. This one thing is NOT the reason I'm going to ctb but just a final nail in coffin. Life is obviously telling me to do it. I was trying to consider recovery but this news showed me it's pointless.
It was all the abuse, trauma, mental/physical issues and just being dealt an unbelievably shitty hand in life why I'm going to ctb. Especially my ex he killed me yet left me alive in a meat suit with no person left in there. I feel forced out if life..i don't want to ctb, it devastates me. But I refuse to keep trying and being beaten down, trying and getting nothing but worse and worse. I have been in limbo over this way too long. This is a long time coming and my Time is coming soon. I want to be free...free from this cruel miserable world.