NSFW Abusive father I haven't seen for 12 years died in weird accident same week I was planning suicide

[Meatismoz]

Got off work Sunday morning and got black out drunk for the first time in months and bought a gun last month thinking I was going to go when I got my bonus check this Friday trying to leave as much for my family as possible

Then I woke up to a call from my mom that my dad fell off his boat and drowned in 6 feet water somehow. Assuming he had to have been high on meth or something cause the circumstances around it are very weird.

He was a subhuman piece of shit who did horrible things to my mom, me, our animals and I won't even get into it but the first thought I had when I heard was that I might at least get some inheritance money out of his land and decided to postpone my plan until after all of that was figured out


Then I decided to go through my Facebook messages this week and found a message from him a month ago in my spam from a fake account. After no attempted contact for 12 years since I was 10 he tried talking to me a month before his death and it really made me cry for the first time since the situation happened. I almost fell for it too but the part about "I won't bring up the past" as if anyone but him did shit wrong or I could've done things wrong as a child made me see how bullshit it was, couldn't even bring himself close to apologizing. Made me sick to my stomach finding this message to the

 

[SASU-KE]

There are a lot of parents like this. Abusive their whole lives and then suddenly in their old age they have a change of heart. The circumstances of his death seem mysterious. I wonder what really happened.