Venting Abandonment

[alstroemeria55]

I'm so sick of people who already know they will abandon me in the end getting my hopes up. Why can't anybody be honest? Is it my fault for falling into these traps? I'm so tired of being used. I'm so tired of allowing myself to be used because I just need some semblance of connection. There's no reason for me to open up to anyone and waste my time socializing when everyone is just going to be selfish.
Is it just my fate to get abused over and over?
I want to have the courage to end it already. I don't know why I'm still trying.

 

[justanotherfailure]

I'm sorry, loneliness is hard. I wish people weren't so selfish and that genuine friendship were easier to find