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edu0z

edu0z

carried away by a moonlight shadow
Aug 25, 2021
552
I'm having the biggest shitty day I've had in a long time. Everything I've tried since the alarm clock went off at 3 am has gone absurdly wrong... Why should I keep trying? it is more than clear that I am useless. I can't do it anymore, I just want everything to end at once
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry that things are so awful, I understand how you feel. This life can be so depressing and I know that it can be dreadful when things just get worse. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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SpaceCadet

SpaceCadet

‎In a perfect world, nobody would be suicidal
Feb 27, 2022
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You're not useless, some days everything is caotic, sometimes we even wake up with a good mindset to "just go after it" but things inevitably go wrong. May tommorow be better for all of us.
 
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edu0z

edu0z

carried away by a moonlight shadow
Aug 25, 2021
552
I'm sorry that things are so awful, I understand how you feel. This life can be so depressing and I know that it can be dreadful when things just get worse. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
You don't know how frustrating it is after studying, and training, and training... and prepare and fight so hard for so many months. That then you can not dedicate yourself to what you like the most because of an emotional issue of something that happened 10 years ago

After spending 4 years training myself to be emotionally strong. To have a strong ethic of work, to develop creativity and enough coldness that allows me to know what to do in any situation, to isolate myself for months and months deteriorating relationships with my best friends to be able to become an exceptional person capable of helping anyone... after spending almost a year studying such a complicated subject daily

And what good is any of that if I'm not even a person... I am AN "alter"... and I can't even control the time I'm going to be outside

I just want it all to end all at once.

You are a good person. Always in the forum, empathizing with everyone. I wish you the best and that you can find peace.
 
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WadeingThru

WadeingThru

Experienced
Feb 25, 2022
209
I'm having the biggest shitty day I've had in a long time. Everything I've tried since the alarm clock went off at 3 am has gone absurdly wrong... Why should I keep trying? it is more than clear that I am useless. I can't do it anymore, I just want everything to end at once
No matter how shitty today is, I know tomorrow can be even shittier. I know this because when things seem to be at their worst they somehow get even shittier.

Was there a Phil Collins's song that went something like…. Shit; Shit; Shittier
 
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Someone123

Illuminated
Oct 19, 2021
3,875
Very relatable- I've had well over 300 shitty days in a row, and I won't have a good one until I ctb no matter what I do.
 
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