Venting A really stupid vent

[Sylveon]

To overcome my SI and make peace with the idea of my passing, for when/if the time comes, I decided that I would go by the rails every chance I get (I still live with my parents, so I barely get any time alone) to make myself more "comfortable" (God, that sounds pathetic, I know), and today was the second day of it, but dear god, I couldn't go beyond the boundary wall on both occasions. Just when I'm about to... I get interrupted by someone, be it someone suddenly parking their bike beside me, some guy randomly popping outta nowhere talking on his phone, or some dude staring into my soul for no reason. I know it isn't/wasn't their fault, and that's only the second day of it, but man, I finally felt like I was/am going somewhere. I really don't want these petty things interrupting me. :/

I just hope Sunday will be different...

 

[mortuarymary]

Why train?
you are including the train driver in your death.
Plus your SI sounds high. If so you might fuck up end up damaged.

 

[Sylveon]

Why train?
you are including the train driver in your death.
Plus your SI sounds high. If so you might fuck up end up damaged.

I know... :/
but I've no other way.

 

[mortuarymary]

I know... :/
but I've no other way.

Read the forums, there is.

 

[Sylveon]

Read the forums, there is.

None of the other methods are accessible to me, apart from cutting and SWB. I can try cutting, but... you know, it has just a 1.9% success rate, which doesn't inspire much confidence, and SWB seems too damn unreliable...

 

[mortuarymary]

None of the other methods are accessible to me, apart from cutting and SWB. I can try cutting, but... you know, it has a just 1.9% success rate, which doesn't inspire much confidence, and SWB seems too damn unreliable...

I can't sway you anyway. If rail in your choice then it is.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for, I find it so cruel how it's so unnecessarily difficult to die on our own terms. It's horrible to me how we exist in this society where a painless suicide is purposely made so inaccessible, we really shouldn't have to struggle so much to die.