Discussion A question - I am planning to CTB by SN soon, would anyone be interested in a thread documenting what's happening to me during it?

[yourdaughterinjapan]

My dream death would be a death for *science*, and I would hope for my experience to help people, who are interested in CTB-ing the same way as me. Maybe we are the same height and weight, maybe we have the same medicine, the same level of SN purity.
I am also not looking forward to "I am sorry"/"Fly high"/"Godspeed" responses, I want the atmopshere to be relaxed and you don't have to be sad, you can send memes or music that you like.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think everyone here considering the SN method is grateful when people post their experiences. Not that there's any expectation for people to of course. It's got to be a really stressful and private time plus- there's the obvious concern of having internet browsers left open when the authorities eventually turn up.

But yeah- I think most people do look at people's regimens when they post them and are grateful to hear about actual experiences. It's not like there's ever going to be an official study! We have to rely on one another and past posts to get an idea of what to expect and what protocols appear to have been the most successful. So- if you feel up to it- thanks for wanting to share- if you decide to go ahead.

 

[Unknown21]

I'm so interested.

 

[Vizzy]

My dream death would be a death for *science*, and I would hope for my experience to help people, who are interested in CTB-ing the same way as me. Maybe we are the same height and weight, maybe we have the same medicine, the same level of SN purity.
I am also not looking forward for "I am sorry"/"Fly high"/"Godspeed" responses, I want the atmopshere to be relaxed and you don't have to be sad, you can send memes or music that you like.

Hi when you planning to do it ?

 

[yourdaughterinjapan]

Hi when you planning to do it ?

This week or next week ideally, I am yet to receive my packages. So yeah, it's kinda a bummer for me to make this thread with nothing really prepared.

 

[Vizzy]

This week or next week ideally, I am yet to receive my packages. So yeah, it's kinda a bummer for me to make this thread with nothing really prepared.

Okay I will be gone before that lol

 

[yourdaughterinjapan]

Okay I will be gone before that lol

Hey no one said it would be a race!
My biggest problem is that I need to have the flat just for myself, so I can do it calmly and try to present my dead body to be as bearable as possible. I want to be found looking like I am asleep...with a slightly blue skin but still asleep you know.
I don't know what to write for my goodbye, I don't want people to blame themselves - it's nobody's fault, really.
To be honest my family isn't ideal, my "friends" are assholes....but I don't feel the need to be spiteful. My death will be painful enough so at least I can make them seem like they are good people, because no one listens to the suicidal folks anyway.

 

[HerculePoirot]

This week or next week ideally, I am yet to receive my packages. So yeah, it's kinda a bummer for me to make this thread with nothing really prepared.

I must say you MUST be prepared. If not, the risk of failure is quite high, which is the worst thing you may experience. Read carefully the resources available here. Then do the thing properly and successfully.

 

[progeria]

I'm also thinking of SN soon, so it would be very interesting to see the video documentation

 

[yourdaughterinjapan]

I must say you MUST be prepared. If not, the risk of failure is quite high, which is the worst thing you may experience. Read carefully the resources available here. Then do the thing properly and successfully.

I'll use metoclopramide (10mg), I lied about having nausea and migraines.
More, I found 98% (or more) purity NaNO2 that's designed for lab use, and the website doesn't require a declaration on why you want to buy a product like this, unless it's something hardcore like bromine.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Okay, apparently you are aware of recommended actions and precautions. Sorry for having doubted. Best wishes from the bottom of my heart.

 

[yourdaughterinjapan]

Okay, apparently you are aware of recommended actions and precautions. Sorry for having doubted. Best wishes from the bottom of my heart.

No worries!

 

[kionu09]

Take some ibuprofen too

 

[UnwindingStar]

I would be interested in your updates. Thank you for posting.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

I think weve had enough reports / accounts of SN CTB by now. "For science", but aint this a lil fucked up?

 

[FuneralCry]

It's up to you if you want to make a thread or not. I wish you the best of luck with your plans.

 

[oh_no191]

I would definitely be interested. All is up to you though!

 

[Sammie_com.sanrio]

My dream death would be a death for *science*, and I would hope for my experience to help people, who are interested in CTB-ing the same way as me. Maybe we are the same height and weight, maybe we have the same medicine, the same level of SN purity.
I am also not looking forward to "I am sorry"/"Fly high"/"Godspeed" responses, I want the atmopshere to be relaxed and you don't have to be sad, you can send memes or music that you like.

I would be interested just in case hanging wound work for me

 

[HerculePoirot]

At first sight, I understood you were going to commit suicide mainly for science and human knowledge. I'm sure now I was wrong.
Also, I appreciate your "non-sad" approach. I don't think there is such thing as 'happy suicide' (except in case of dementia, which is obviously not your case). Nevertheless, the rational and relaxed approach is really interesting.
Finally, the mental aspects of your project are probably more important than the 'technical' aspects, as the SN method is now extensively documented.
Post scriptum:

 

[Sid19]

Hey mate, I hope you get a peaceful death. It really would be a great help if you can tell me what stuff I should get and prepare to do it? I also am planning to ctb with this exact method. I'm from south asia BTW. Just reply to me whenever you get this comment.

 

[PinkyStat]

Sure, i cant buy SN but it would be at least very interesting to read

 

[yourdaughterinjapan]

At first sight, I understood you were going to commit suicide mainly for science and human knowledge. I'm sure now I was wrong.
Also, I appreciate your "non-sad" approach. I don't think there is such thing as 'happy suicide' (except in case of dementia, which is obviously not your case). Nevertheless, the rational and relaxed approach is really interesting.
Finally, the mental aspects of your project are probably more important than the 'technical' aspects, as the SN method is now extensively documented.
Post scriptum:

Yeah, I just want my death to have any positive cause, to be "researachable" for others.
I am living like I would always do, I just have this "damn I wanna know how SN tastes" mindset, so it's more like ingesting the poison out of curiosity instead of just wishing to die, while still wishing to die of course.

When I read the symptoms, it was basically a Low Blood Pressure Simulator(TM) - which is something that I already have, so it shouldn't be that bad.

 

[HerculePoirot]

I just have this "damn I wanna know how SN tastes" mindset, so it's more like ingesting the poison out of curiosity instead of just wishing to die, while still wishing to die of course.

You know, if conducted properly, SN suicide will be a quite short experience, not really exciting: salty taste, heart racing, dizzyness, nausea, loss of consciousness within 10 minutes, death within one hour. Doing it out of curiosity doesn't make much sense.
Again, perhaps I misunderstood. If so, please forgive me.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's up to you whether you want to post here updates how it goes. This is your personal decision. I wish you all the best!!

 

[yourdaughterinjapan]

You know, if conducted properly, SN suicide will be a quite short experience, not really exciting: salty taste, heart racing, dizzyness, nausea, loss of consciousness within 10 minutes, death within one hour. Doing it out of curiosity doesn't make much sense.
Again, perhaps I misunderstood. If so, please forgive me.

I am very willing to go out good sir, I am just trying to make it as unstressful mentally as possible.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Okay. I understand. I wish I have the same mindset when my time comes.