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A possible farewell to a former member

TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,355
If Smilla hears this, I want to say I enjoyed her company here and her presence on SS and reddit (before SS subreddit was shutdown/censored). I hope she is able to find peace someday.
 
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Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
thrw_a_way1221221 said:
If Smilla hears this, I want to say I enjoyed her company here and her presence on SS and reddit (before SS subreddit was shutdown/censored). I hope she is able to find peace someday.
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I will pass this along to her. we are chatting now.



Update: Smilla is in OK spirits... Disappointed in herself... As @nobody_nowhere2 said earlier, anxiety and guilt took over and caused her to abort. She still wants to proceed, so..... I don't know what will happen from here. She says she will touch base with me again tomorrow.

I have passed on everyones hugs, love and well wishes, and she is forever grateful to everyone.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I could not gas myself, I tried. I need a much more instant can't turn back from method to overcome survival instinct. It has to be gunshot, N, jumping off the sunshine skyway bridge, Jumping in front of a train or semi truck. I can't risk failing for one. You could get knocked out by the gas but not die because u ripped the bag off head. It's not in my opinion an easy way to go unless u are already close to death, weak, and somebody makes sure u are dying or died. So u can't rip bag off head or something. You almost need a second person to watch and make sure everything is working.
 
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color_me_gone

color_me_gone

Sun is rising
Dec 27, 2018
969
Final Escape said:
You almost need a second person to watch and make sure everything is working.
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I'm beginning to come to that conclusion myself. :'(
To Smilla, we love you! :love:
 
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TiredHorse

Enlightened
Nov 1, 2018
1,819
Final Escape said:
I need a much more instant can't turn back from method to overcome survival instinct.
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I'm starting to think that way myself --except I tried gunshot ten days ago and couldn't move my %$#@ing finger the necessary 3/4". Bloody disspiriting. I'm utterly disgusted with myself. But it resoundingly proves SI can lock you up right at the very threshold of success, regardless of method.

Empty Smile said:
I have passed on everyones hugs, love and well wishes, and she is forever grateful to everyone.
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Thank you, @Empty Smile. She's a good 'un. I miss having her around; I will miss her when she's gone, too.
 
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Thanatonaut

Thanatonaut

My time is coming.
May 17, 2019
264
Has anyone heard from her lately? She was supposed to check back in with me, but I'm not getting any replies to my messages on Wire, but they're showing they were delivered.
 
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Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
nobody_nowhere2 said:
Has anyone heard from her lately? She was supposed to check back in with me, but I'm not getting any replies to my messages on Wire, but they're showing they were delivered.
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I sent her a message and haven't gotten a response either.
 
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lululoo

lululoo

Mage
Dec 15, 2018
558
Any word?
 
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Dartz

Dartz

Give Me The Dirt
Jun 29, 2018
613
I hope she's found peace
 
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Alchemist

Alchemist

Warlock
Apr 3, 2019
709
I hope she's doing and you get to know anything soon.
 
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Thanatonaut

Thanatonaut

My time is coming.
May 17, 2019
264
No word for me either, but the Wire app is showing my messages are being delivered to her phone, and she was supposed to wipe everything off before she left. So I just don't know.
 
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Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
nobody_nowhere2 said:
No word for me either, but the Wire app is showing my messages are being delivered to her phone, and she was supposed to wipe everything off before she left. So I just don't know.
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Johnnythefox

Johnnythefox

Que sera sera
Nov 11, 2018
3,129
Is there no update on @Smilla
 
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Severen

Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,819
Rest in peace, Smilla.
 
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FionaWR

Member
May 27, 2019
67
My thoughts with her. A lot of people seem to like her posts. If she fails and SI takes over will she be unbanned?
 
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lululoo

lululoo

Mage
Dec 15, 2018
558
FionaWR said:
My thoughts with her. A lot of people seem to like her posts. If she fails and SI takes over will she be unbanned?
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She was banned months ago and isn't going to be unbanned.
I personally believe she is resting is peace.
 
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FionaWR

Member
May 27, 2019
67
lululoo said:
She was banned months ago and isn't going to be unbanned.
I personally believe she is resting is peace.
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I hope so too. I wish I had that courage.
 
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