A friend called me but i was not even able to speak

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I feel so ashemed of this, a friend called me but i was not even able to speak, im just to much traumatizzed, i can't even go out of my house and i live as hikikomori..

Why they force me to live this life, they will consider me weird,stupid etc


But its just im to much traumatizzed for do anything even speak properly, please let me f*ing die, why they want people have memories of me ruined

 

[Judah]

I'm sorry about that, did something happen that triggered you to feel that way?

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I'm sorry about that, did something happen that triggered you to feel that way?

I feel i lost the girl i love completely.. maybe i can "survive" the childhood trauma, but not her, i got really depended by her because before her i was already hikikomori

 

[Judah]

Oh, I'm sorry, losing someone you love is pretty painful and I know how it feels. The loss of my partner really hurt me too much and somehow I controlled my thoughts, I must admit that it was really difficult, maybe trying to push those thoughts away will help because seriously, it hurts a lot

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so inhumane how people are just expected to suffer endlessly in this existence and are denied a way to just leave in peace, it must be so dreadful feeling trapped in that situation, existence really is too cruel.

 

[mothercoin]

This happened to me too.. someone I really care about called me because they were worried about me but I wasn't saying anything so they had to hang up. I just have no hope, nothing positive to say, and I'm tired of complaining all the time to everyone around me. I am so lonely and I know I'm making it this way but saying anything positive just feels like a complete lie..