NSFW A dead child is better than a failed one

[Ekim]

After my post yesterday I read every reply I didn't expect anyone to care but some of you did and I'm grateful for that but the feeling hasn't gone away Tomorrow is result day and all I can think about is the look in my father's eyes the disappointment and the silence, The way everything might change after that It feels like failing at this means failing at everything like I've already ruined whatever future I was supposed to have. This evening I'm finally going to attempt CTB by partial hanging.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I imagine it depends on the parent but I doubt many would prefer their child to die, rather than fail. Failure is a possibility for everyone at some stage for one. It seems unlikely your parents never struggled with anything. Making mistakes is how we learn too.

Plus- suicide rules out any possibility for future success to compensate. It also rules out future failure of course- too. I imagine many pro- lifers view suicide as the ultimate failure to be honest. Because- it's quitting in their eyes I imagine.

I expect parents end up humbled if their child kills themselves following a bad result. That they really shouldn't have pushed them so hard or, put all their focus/ need on that child being a success.

It can sometimes be tricky to judge how parents will react. I remember dreading getting my Dad's signature on my first (and only) detention but- he was actually ok with it. If anything, it proved I was human.

Have you warned your parents that you found the test really hard so- you're worried you may have failed it?

 

[Aether_Mourner]

People are the way they are, there's no need to try to change it.