9mm

[average-joe4]

Is it really that wishy-washy to use a 9mm if the barrel placement is good? It seems a lot easier to pull off than hanging at this point.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I don't think it is wishy-washy. (My opinion, idk what others think)
BTW, what makes you wish death?

 

[average-joe4]

I don't think it is wishy-washy. (My opinion, idk what others think)
BTW, what makes you wish death?

I don't even know at this point. For starters, my Dad's always been a dick and stated im the reason for ruining the family issues. Whenever I started working I would have this huge heavy feeling of depression/suicidality. I didn't last more than 3 months at a job. I had a lot of dreams crushed and since then, I've just been holding on, hoping I can get better through years of treatment and meds, but I've only spiraled even further than I could've imagined. It's only spiraling quicker and quicker recently, there's a good chance I'll end up homeless. I'm so fucking stressed out it's unbearable. I'm so fucking worried I'm not going to be able to ctb and I'm going to end up a destitute hobo.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Mmm, I wished for death around year 12 and earlier (I remember towards year 10/11 when I read the 5 last acts repeatedly).

I later learnt that death wishes seem to correlate with nuisance assignments and sometimes fear surrounding them and similar.

However, the death wishes seem to be sometimes fading, maybe they taught me something, tho not sure what it was.