54. Wasted my life. Too late to fix.

[Fadeawaaaay]

You?

 

[The Divine Comedy]

About half your age. Any advice to give me in retrospect?

 

[Snake of Eden]

36. There is no fixing. Either ctb for very good reasons or stay alive for the rest of natural life span for many good reasons

 

[Pluto]

After 40 years with zero improvement despite every effort being made, I can see where this is going.

 

[idiot_dad]

42. Too tired and worn down to even care about fixing anything.

 

[Belljar]

After 30 everything is so much harder if you don't have a career set up. I'm 35 and I don't have skills or work experience. I have one useless degree and that's it. I can't get further loans to get more education. My peers all set up careers by 21 whIle I was avoiding life and being depressed.

 

[meetapple]

I can identify with all of the above answers.

I couldn't deal with my thoughts. I hoped things would get better. They haven't. I can't even begin to make up any deficits.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am nearly 21. I am very tired of life, I have been suicidal since I was very young. I want nothing to do with life, I just want to sleep forever. For me the problem is life itself and the only way to fix that is to die. I cannot imagine being alive at a much older age. I do not know how people do it.

 

[death137]

I'm 24 and life never began for me. I only started to feel very depressed about it at age 18 and later I realized that it has been over before it even started. For the past 5-6 years I've been rotting a lot. It's like I've been a zombie. Now the only thing left is to make my death official.

 

[Kobusu]

21. Tired of fighting every day. No reason to anymore, so why continue?

 

[viniboi9]

27 with autism, quiet borderline personality disorder, brain damage. I had a cold upbringing, tired of life now, i just wanna leave my body

 

[newave3]

62. Wasted my life. WAAAAAAY too late to fix it.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

You?

53 here. My physical illnesses and condition got very bad around age 27 but even before that I'd wasted, squandered, or f-ed up COUNTLESS opportunities that may have led my life down a better path even despite what happened in terms of my health. I'll never know and I wonder and think about that a lot, even though I try not to because what's the point now? And even after my life's scope got much much smaller and less opportunity came my way after getting sick, I still had a few chances and points in my life I could've made (most likely) better choices but instead I wasted those chances and stayed mired in the miserable situation I was in at the time. So I understand where you're coming from and how you feel, indeed I do. :(

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

About half your age. Any advice to give me in retrospect?

After 30 everything is so much harder if you don't have a career set up. I'm 35 and I don't have skills or work experience. I have one useless degree and that's it. I can't get further loans to get more education. My peers all set up careers by 21 whIle I was avoiding life and being depressed.

Absolutely true… If you come out of college already off the rails you're in big trouble… I spent my life in a career that I probably was not suited for and now it's all crashing down… Oops

 

[Donk]

43. feels like I'm too old to start over.

 

[Deadweight]

35, most of my life living with mental illness and the difficulties in everything it can impact left unchecked. I've improved a lot in managing my behaviours in the past 5 years, but I don't think I'll be functional ever. The longer it goes, the worse my situation is getting.

 

[Enabran255]

After 30 everything is so much harder if you don't have a career set up. I'm 35 and I don't have skills or work experience. I have one useless degree and that's it. I can't get further loans to get more education. My peers all set up careers by 21 whIle I was avoiding life and being depressed.

Absolutely true… If you come out of college already off the rails you're in big trouble… I spent my life in a career that I probably was not suited for and now it's all crashing down… Oops

Definitely true. Age and freedom gap discrimination are a real thing and only getting worse. These days age discrimination begins around that 30 year old mark in some industries. And HR departments definitely don't like any gaps in your employment history. You'll be grilled about them.

It's not only career either, it's social and romantic options as well. If you don't keep pace with your peers you will be rammed off into the ditch alongside the road of life. Any attempts to get out of the ditch and back on that road are met with increasing disdain and disgust by those on that point of the road. And the longer you can't get yourself out of the ditch, the more cruel and inhumane you're treated trying to get back on.

43. feels like I'm too old to start over.

After 40 years with zero improvement despite every effort being made, I can see where this is going.

I can definitely relate. Despite herculean efforts on my part at times, the universe has done its best to sabotage them and snatch defeat from the jaws of victory. One can only endure so long attempting to make progress at a game that is clearly rigged.

 

[Mashedout]

There is no such thing as wasting a life because no one was given directions on what is supposed to happen with our time here. A billionare or a bum are both decaying meat and end up the same way.

 

[DarkDg21]

32.
I made it this far thinking and believing that maybe one day things would get better. What a load of BS.
Some people are simply born to suffer and be miserable. That's just the way it is.

 

[Ego Sum Medusa]

53 here. My physical illnesses and condition got very bad around age 27 but even before that I'd wasted, squandered, or f-ed up COUNTLESS opportunities that may have led my life down a better path even despite what happened in terms of my health. I'll never know and I wonder and think about that a lot, even though I try not to because what's the point now? And even after my life's scope got much much smaller and less opportunity came my way after getting sick, I still had a few chances and points in my life I could've made (most likely) better choices but instead I wasted those chances and stayed mired in the miserable situation I was in at the time. So I understand where you're coming from and how you feel, indeed I do. :(

I empathize with this on several levels. I'm 57 and all I wanted was to be a mother, a good one, probably because of my difficult upbringing. I did accomplish that to some degree, whilst dealing with a veritable party bag of mental illness and now, some physical as well.

So, I did what I set out to do, I suppose, but looking back, I could have done so much more. Lots of, most women become mothers. I could also have been a Writer, a Virologist, a Linguist...

I'm tired now, getting through my days, their ups and downs.

I feel you, this thread.

 

[orange]

I am nearly 21. I am very tired of life, I have been suicidal since I was very young. I want nothing to do with life, I just want to sleep forever. For me the problem is life itself and the only way to fix that is to die. I cannot imagine being alive at a much older age. I do not know how people do it.

On the same boat as you. Image having to survive and function in society AND have a sick body. Could not be me.

 

[meetapple]

After 30 everything is so much harder if you don't have a career set up. I'm 35 and I don't have skills or work experience. I have one useless degree and that's it. I can't get further loans to get more education. My peers all set up careers by 21 whIle I was avoiding life and being depressed.

At 49, with a law degree and not much experience, I am on the outside looking in. I always feel different than everyone else and it causes constant suffering because people are constantly watching me.

 

[Gurtinukkk]

You're over double my age. Any advice you can give me to not fuck up even more?

 

[bed]

26. Never done anything with my life.

 

[meetapple]

You're over double my age. Any advice you can give me to not fuck up even more?

Don't isolate yourself. Keep improving social skills. Join a group like Toastmasters. Pick your career carefully. Take the Meyers-Briggs for choosing a career.

 

[Vex]

35. Surprised I made it this far. I have tried to catch the bus before but am glad I failed.

Sometimes things feel hopeless and other times there is hope. Even though there is so much pain I guess I will keep trying.

Interpersonal relationships help oh so very much.

 

[GreenTree]

43 and so fucked of with this world. Can't cope but somehow do. Not sure but I'll finally snap and jump off a car park.

62. Wasted my life. WAAAAAAY too late to fix it.

You might not have wasted it but been too unwell too fulfill it. Thats how I feel about mine. Depends what hand we been dealt.

 

[ClownMe]

I'm at the opposite end of the spectrum, only 20 (21 in a few months), but I already feel like my life's over, even though it might seem hard to believe because im still "young".

I've seen the World for what it is and unfortunately I can't unsee it now. I wish there was a reset button I could press so I could start over again.

 

[Sslsh]

26. No will to live. Wasted away the last 10 years. Social anxiety. Crippling depression. Apathy.

I will off myself soon. Have been telling myself that for the better part of the last few years but that's the only thing I'm confident about in life. And it's kind of the only thing that keeps me going (sounds stupid I know)

 

[VoidDesirer22]

I'm at the opposite end of the spectrum, only 20 (21 in a few months), but I already feel like my life's over, even though it might seem hard to believe because im still "young".

I've seen the World for what it is and unfortunately I can't unsee it now. I wish there was a reset button I could press so I could start over again.

For some reason this was the message that welled up a little bit of emotion behind my eyes.

I am your age and I truely wish I could reset it, too. But with less neuroticism. I'd have liked to meet the same girl and for her to decide we shouldn't be together - but I wish I handled it better.