50 years old... Existence is pointless

[ChamberOfEchoes]

I agree with you. It is all fleeting and pointless. But to be happy, it exists. I've seen it. I could have had it. You have to work at it. It obviously helps A LOT if you come from it. Have people guiding you on how to be in life. Not everyone gets that. Then there's all of us. We can't understand each other. They can't possibly see how we would want to end this. They want time to slow down!
It's unreal. Maybe we could have built a society where we all enjoy it. We didn't. Plus I've made mistakes I can't blame anyone for.
It was possible. We could have been them. We are not.

Yes, what you call happiness is actually an illusion, one of life's many. But all illusions fall, and when they fall, everything becomes more difficult. For every illusion of happiness in life, you pay with ten blows of suffering. This is why we are destined for existential checkmate.