napkin5
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- Mar 19, 2023
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hi , I've never done anything like this or even posted a thread before so bare with me. As the title says, i am 25 and facing homelessness. I smoke weed (it's legal where I am) for pain I'm in everyday because I have been suffering from what the doctors think is Chrohns disease, but last time I tried to do a colonoscopy it sent me to the ER and it's another year of waiting again. I spent most of my days in bed or the toilet. I now currently weigh 89 pounds and I have gotten so weak. This past summer whilst still struggling with my illness I also had to fly to another state to testify against my dad because he molested my step sister that I shared a room with. My dad was a physically and emotionally abusive cop who was in my life until he was sentenced to life in prison this past summer. Since he went to jail, all sides of my family have stopped communication with me. One more thing, my partner started abusing me around the same time of my dads sentencing and when I flew out he stayed at home and cheated on me. Hearing this , most of my friends stopped talking to me when I wouldn't leave him. But since his family has money, it's the only way I can afford to stay alive right now. I know he will be done with me soon , and me my dog (a chihuahua mix) won't make it on the streets, she currently has a collapsing trachea and I'm doing my best to manage it but I know we wouldn't last it is still snowing outside and all I have now is a broken down car,no family, no friends.. I feel so so alone and the only person around makes me feel worse . I just want to be alive again