Venting 2 weeks to 2 days

[steygrone]

Honestly I just can't handle it anymore. I was gonna wait to go to a concert with some friends and go to a wedding reception. But I realized that I only agreed to these things to make it seem like everything was okay so that no one suspected me. But honestly everything is just way too much. I was in a comfortable spot, planning and making sure everything was set up correctly so I can ctb properly. But work stressing me out more, being at home stressing me out more, even friends stressing me out. I don't have a safe place anymore, everything is just too much. Having to fake it all the time only for people to hate you and take things out on you that aren't in your control, I was already done with life but it seems like everyone wants me to make a swift exit. So plans are still a go, just closer than what I was planning. Gonna just make my exit from everyone's lives calm as I can so I can finally end things. I'll make myself comfortable and drift away, I'll finally be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find true peace from all the suffering, best wishes.

 

[steygrone]

I hope that you find true peace from all the suffering, best wishes.

Thank you, I hope to be gone by Sunday night or Monday morning. I'll make it as peaceful as I can for myself

 

[Light_]

Thank you, I hope to be gone by Sunday night or Monday morning. I'll make it as peaceful as I can for myself

your profile pic, are you going by full suspension hanging? courage and conviction be with you.

 

[steygrone]

your profile pic, are you going by full suspension hanging? courage and conviction be with you.

No not going with that method, I did think about it briefly but I'm not sure if I can find a place that'll hold me. I'm going with the SN method, hopefully it does the job. If not I'll come up with a backup just in case. Honestly the profile pic was me just going "I wanna kill myself, I need a profile pic for this" and that's what I picked lol