I am contemplating between booking 1 or 2 nights in a hotel. Initially I wanted to book for 2 nights to have additional 24-hour buffer if things go wrong or another 11 hours because during those hours the hotel staff won't enter the room. The check-in is at 2PM and check-out at 11AM next day so it's only after 11AM they will start looking. Things that can go wrong are like me drifting to sleep with benzos and unable to drink 2nd cup or some force majeur.
On the other hand I will have to book 1 day and the reason for this is my mom. She's currently abroad and if something happens to her there, i.e. somehow (and I don't know how) the news of my death reach her she will get hospitalized at best (which would be very expensive) or it will be too devastating for her that she won't make it. I don't see a way for news reaching her there so that is not what I am concerned about.
I am concerned about inner intuition that tells the person that something bad happened to their loved one. This does happen right? People even see dreams the same day when loved one dies. If that happens and I die 2 days before her flight back she will start calling and me not answering will make it worse until she gets home and reads my note with fake reason that I had an army draft and will contact her later. The plan is to make sure she gets home in peace, reads my note and later police will visit her with bad news. If she's to be hospitalized then let it be here, not abroad and after she has visited her son and loved ones there. If she won't make it then all the stuff, thigs that hold sentimental value, documents and stashed money will be left to landlord. He will throw everything out except money of course. This doesn't sit well with me. Some of the stuff is supposed to go to my brother.
So that's my dilemma at the moment. Book 1 night or 2 nights prior to her arrival. First option makes sure she returns with peaceful mind and then bad news reach her but it leaves me with 11 hours for SN to work successfully. Second option can cause disress and maybe worse while she's abroad or worse, during flight but leaves me with 11 hours + additional 24 hours until check-out to make sure if I wake up (because I fucked-up something) I can drink 2nd cup of SN. Not sure about hotel staff though. They might come once but I don't know if it's morning or noon hours.
I could however book 1 night before her arrival and 1 night after so my check-out will not be the next day at 11AM. I could schedule automatic email at say 5PM to police and ambulance to come over so the mom will be notified after she arrives.
On the other hand I will have to book 1 day and the reason for this is my mom. She's currently abroad and if something happens to her there, i.e. somehow (and I don't know how) the news of my death reach her she will get hospitalized at best (which would be very expensive) or it will be too devastating for her that she won't make it. I don't see a way for news reaching her there so that is not what I am concerned about.
I am concerned about inner intuition that tells the person that something bad happened to their loved one. This does happen right? People even see dreams the same day when loved one dies. If that happens and I die 2 days before her flight back she will start calling and me not answering will make it worse until she gets home and reads my note with fake reason that I had an army draft and will contact her later. The plan is to make sure she gets home in peace, reads my note and later police will visit her with bad news. If she's to be hospitalized then let it be here, not abroad and after she has visited her son and loved ones there. If she won't make it then all the stuff, thigs that hold sentimental value, documents and stashed money will be left to landlord. He will throw everything out except money of course. This doesn't sit well with me. Some of the stuff is supposed to go to my brother.
So that's my dilemma at the moment. Book 1 night or 2 nights prior to her arrival. First option makes sure she returns with peaceful mind and then bad news reach her but it leaves me with 11 hours for SN to work successfully. Second option can cause disress and maybe worse while she's abroad or worse, during flight but leaves me with 11 hours + additional 24 hours until check-out to make sure if I wake up (because I fucked-up something) I can drink 2nd cup of SN. Not sure about hotel staff though. They might come once but I don't know if it's morning or noon hours.
I could however book 1 night before her arrival and 1 night after so my check-out will not be the next day at 11AM. I could schedule automatic email at say 5PM to police and ambulance to come over so the mom will be notified after she arrives.
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