I'd give every last penny to the last person I care about, in the hopes that they'll use it to achieve that dream they always had.
They told me they always wanted to be a figure skater. I'd give every last bit to know that they achieved it.
He's had a rough enough life as it is, and i'd love to make it a bit more bearable for him with all that he's gone through up to this point, especially with recent events that were caused in part by me.
the 500k would be able to pay well enough for all his classes and the gear he'd need, and let him comfortably go to college, with enough money left over to use for necessities and a place to live for a non-negligible amount of time.
As for me, I entered this world with nothing, and I'll return the same way.
I don't care enough about, well, anything really, to spend it on myself. I'd rather give it to someone who deserves it, rather than waste it on myself and such.
After so much time being a relative burden on everyone around me, i'm fine with helping the one person who made me feel important in my life.
I know he'll never see this, nobody will, but i sincerely hope he does alright, and if i do go through with it, i hope he lives a long and fulfilling life (even if it does have to be without me, against both our wishes), and achieves his dreams. Lord knows i'd never be able to pursue mine.