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skybluesuicide

skybluesuicide

Member
May 31, 2023
38
people widely consider my age range to be the best time of their lives. If this is what it's like on top of the summit I'm not sticking around to see the bottom
 
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LastBusHome

Member
Nov 6, 2022
41
I'm ambivalent about aging because I won't have the chance. The way things are in my life right now, I either lose everything that really matters to me or I'm dead. If things were different I'd probably still feel the same. If anything, maybe I'd feel like I had something to look forward to since I would have had a pretty wonderful career along with my partner. I don't know man. I don't know. No sense in thinking about "what if".
 
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farlander

Member
Apr 19, 2023
12
I try to just live things one day at a time. I hadn't thought about the concept in a long while but this reminded me that as soon as I reach a point where I'm incapable of taking care of myself (wiping my own ass, etc) I want to die. Alternatively, I just plan to live forever. It's completely illogical with no evidentiary basis, but I just decided one day I'm just going to live forever, and based on my loose understanding of infinite parallel universes, I figure whenever this body gives up the ghost I'll just roll over to the next one. Maybe the next sequence everyone knows about it and there's a whole field of science devoted to the concept of quantum reincarnation. Flip a coin I guess, anything that can conceivably happen to that coin during the flip is about how many possibilities I see my life going towards. There are some visible signs of age that I'm fully looking forward to, though. More wrinkles and more grey hair are two things I'm genuinely excited to experience, weird as that sounds.
 
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fizi22

Member
Nov 15, 2021
79
It makes sense in a way, but honestly I have never seen an older adult with a job they love or with a huge friend group. A career sure,family maybe. But they all look stressed out of their mind

Your observation is mostly similar to mind. tho i do seem some happy people but not often. What part of the world do you live in?
 
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enditall222

Member
May 20, 2023
46
I genuinely can't imagine having to be 50, 40, 30, or even a 20 year old. My time is coming soon.
 
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voc_89

Experienced
Apr 10, 2023
238
a way to finally die without causing significant grief to my siblings (the only ones keeping me on this earth). I say that as natural death is more accepted than CTB. And that CTB can cause alot of grief to those left behind. Last thing I want to do is deeply hurt those who have been with me through thick and thin.
 
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TheSpookyNameGuy

TheSpookyNameGuy

There's nothing here..
Apr 30, 2023
646
The thought of existing for decades longer and slowly decaying from old age really is so disgusting and hellish to me, it's such a cruel punishment being a slave to suffering in this flesh prison that is destined to deteriorate and torture us in the process. Existing really is just a meaningless and futile process of slowly dying, it's so undesirable, wanting suicide certainly is very rational in this world, to me it makes sense to want to escape from all future suffering, it's true that existence itself is the true problem.
Existence literally has no point, you get switched on and then off.

Yet the apes believe in procreation because humanity has to exist for some reason..

It's always me me fucking me, never spare a thought for the life you create that will perish anyways.
 
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ExitStrategy

Member
May 14, 2023
5
I'll turn 66 this month. My plan is exit before my birthday. I've had an interesting out of the box engaging life...I've been successful & self employed in creative work...I've lived well in multiple countries...and I've had good loving partners in the past. But I've been single for more than two years and have no children, and at my age this equals isolation. I felt connected with society up until age 60, at which time I noticed a change in how I relate to the world at large and how it relates to me...none of it for the better.

Add to that the fraying of social fabric brought about the internet and the rise in power of the uninformed opinion brought about by that same internet and things look dimmer by the day. I've always followed and been enthused by those more knowledgeable and gifted than myself, both of which are meaningless in today's online ranking system. This is especially true in my profession. The giants in my field are being replaced by morons with a great pitch and megawatt smile. Worse even is that AI will soon turn the tables everything related me & mine professionally...and everything else as well. Creativity will soon be more of a joke than it is now.

So, yeah, getting older sux :))))) Thankfully, I've no chip on my shoulder to carry and have nothing but good thoughts and memories to carry with.

Peace
 
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ncmxm

Experienced
Jun 9, 2021
232
i am terrified of aging. not only because i have no career or anything going for me but i'm also afraid of aging appearance wise. im 23 and have changed a lot appearance wise since i was 18/19 and i still have trouble accepting it. it's very shallow but i can't help it with the way society puts pressure on women to not look old. i'm scared to grow older and still be alone. basically im scared to still be in the same place as i am right now
Same, I recently turned 26 and I was looking at pics of me at 17-21 and it just shocked me how much I had changed, how much I had aged in these years, and if I have changed so much already in such little time I don't want to see how I will age in 20 or more years

I don't think it's shallow, I think it's normal to mourn the loss of youth and beaty
How can it be possible to not be sad because of it

I'm scared of ageing because I don't want to become ugly and wrinkled, yes with age you can get other things like a career etc but honestly I wouldn't give a fuck about a career or anything if I'm old and ugly
 
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Conker

Conker

Specialist
Oct 22, 2019
351
i just remembered how my body is pretty much 70 years old nowadays, in terms of constitution anyways.
sped up quite fast due to environmental factors.

oh well, least I got to see five years worth of real blue skies.
There's more to say tho a siesta is calling me so for now have this Corgi free of charge.

corgi swinging GIF
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
10,495
Your thoughts on growing old?

HORRIBLE!!!


I see how much old people struggle. I don't want to go through any of that. I hate it here now. I can't imagine how awful it will be when I can't get around.
 
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delora

Lola (she/her)
Jun 5, 2023
55
It makes me so anxious. I'd say I have an almost crippling fear of growing old, for pretty much the same reasons everyone else brought up here. It's quite relieving to see that I'm not alone in this.

Due to this fear, my perception of age got quite warped. I used to have an extremely catastrophic idea of what being even a little older would do to me. Recently, I've been trying to pay a bit more attention to other age groups and slowly realizing that things are not at all like my anxiety leads me to believe. For example, this may sound crazy but I've only started opening my eyes to the fact that people in their late 30s are still youthful and don't behave much differently than myself (25).

Still, nothing about aging seems appealing. At a certain point, the body and brain will get undeniably weaker. One can no longer do everything that they could when younger, and there is no turning back. It only gets worse from there.

If I end up making it to an advanced age, I know I'd still choose to CTB as soon as my health starts deteriorating. I will not succumb to illness, I will not wait until I'm incapacitated or have lost my whole self to dementia and similar conditions. This is a certainty: I want to die lucid and in my own terms.
 
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l0stc4use

lonely
May 6, 2022
115
Same, I recently turned 26 and I was looking at pics of me at 17-21 and it just shocked me how much I had changed, how much I had aged in these years, and if I have changed so much already in such little time I don't want to see how I will age in 20 or more years

I don't think it's shallow, I think it's normal to mourn the loss of youth and beaty
How can it be possible to not be sad because of it

I'm scared of ageing because I don't want to become ugly and wrinkled, yes with age you can get other things like a career etc but honestly I wouldn't give a fuck about a career or anything if I'm old and ugly
i resonate with the last paragraph so much. i wish i did not feel this way it holds me back so much
 
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needforvoid_

needforvoid_

Member
Apr 18, 2022
69
If I feel this old rn...
I guess people that're okay with it are mentally well. I'm not down for more maintainance.
 
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meilox

Member
Jun 10, 2023
6
I have no real place to empty my thoughts. So I'll leave my meaningless brain dump here.

Are old people more miserable? I mean looking at it. Their body deteriorates. They are more lonely and more prone for depression. They have potentially lived through more trauma in their long lives. They have suffered through live just to die in a unknown way. They are lonely. It all sounds like a pile of shit.

How did the older members here make it so long in life?? I genuinely have a hard time understanding it. The idea of growing old seems so awful to me.

I really don't want to grow old at all- Maybe i will, but I wish I don't.

That's really just one more reason to CTB for me. A long-ass sufferable lonely life. No thanks-
I have pretty much the same idea. I don't ever really want to age past the point I have right now.
 
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