Your story

[I’vehadenough]

What happened that made you consider suicide?

 

[millefeui]

I was born :/

 

[skitliv]

Life happened

 

[Miss clefable]

I was born :/

This

 

[Virgo]

I was born :/

^

 

[anthomaniac]

Being a transgender man with little to no chance of ever transitioning and getting out of my country's dictatorship

 

[bigj75]

Losing my strength

 

[I’vehadenough]

Losing my strength

What's keeping you alive?

 

[bigj75]

What's keeping you alive?

Correct preparation and fear of failure. If I had all the tools right now I would do it.

 

[I’vehadenough]

H

Correct preparation and fear of failure. If I had all the tools right now I would do it.

habe you learned enough on here to know what tools to use? Are you worried about your family hurting?

 

[ouvreyes]

Being a transgender man with little to no chance of ever transitioning and getting out of my country's dictatorship

that's rough, i'm sorry about that. do you mind me asking where you're at?

 

[Sick Boy]

I have severe depression and anxiety,i just dont feel safe in this world

 

[Final Escape]

What happened that made you consider suicide?

Well it started with being born into a bad situation where my father really wasn't a great guy but my mother got pregnant by him and ended up a single mother even though they did marry and were together a short time. She ended up having my brother with him, then they split and she met an even more terrible guy who was a violent alcoholic. I won't go further into the details of my traumatic childhood, but that is the root cause of many of the problems I ran into once I became an adult. I ended up making really terrible life choices probably in big part due to being pretty neglected growing up. By the time I realized that I was screwing up my life it became overwhelming and in many ways difficult to straighten out. I now live an isolated lonely meaningless existence. I live on the margins of society feeling like an outcast lol! It's a sad pathetic life and very hard.

 

[MAIO]

What happened that made you consider suicide?

Death is inevitable and not all its cracked up to be

 

[Lovemykids]

Living in between purgatory

 

[I’vehadenough]

Y

Well it started with being born into a bad situation where my father really wasn't a great guy but my mother got pregnant by him and ended up a single mother even though they did marry and were together a short time. She ended up having my brother with him, then they split and she met an even more terrible guy who was a violent alcoholic. I won't go further into the details of my traumatic childhood, but that is the root cause of many of the problems I ran into once I became an adult. I ended up making really terrible life choices probably in big part due to being pretty neglected growing up. By the time I realized that I was screwing up my life it became overwhelming and in many ways difficult to straighten out. I now live an isolated lonely meaningless existence. I live on the margins of society feeling like an outcast lol! It's a sad pathetic life and very hard.

eah, I had a bad childhood too, which led to me making bad decisions and getting into traumatic situations. Now I'm fucked for life Bc of one, so be careful out there

 

[I’vehadenough]

I have severe depression and anxiety,i just dont feel safe in this world

That makes it hard to live a normal life

 

[I’vehadenough]

Living in between purgatory

This is purgatory

 

[Trashcan]

Many things. Mainly depression and anxiety disorders, social isolation, not having a future, fucking my life up beyond repair, not wanting to age, not wanting to spend most of my waking hours working, and thinking life is pointless.

 

[Circles]

Many things. Mainly depression and anxiety disorders, social isolation, not having a future, fucking my life up beyond repair, not wanting to age, not wanting to spend most of my waking hours working, and thinking life is pointless.

Yep it's a combination of everything that causes some form of suffering even simple boredom. Working up a Sisyphus ladder only to find out it's just as miserable on top and pointless all the while your meat sack is decaying and having no control over your own body let alone the world you have to endure. Better to have never been born if I knew what I know now. Hell the only purpose of life as far as I know is to procreate and have sex which I fail at and don't see anything positive about it. So what then and to what end? Just surfing my circle until it ends and then it'll be like none of this ever happened which I want but at the same time it's pathetic that the god/universe can get away with creating such a monstrosity full of pointless suffering. It's all just one big fuck up.

 

[worldexploder]

I could write an entire encyclopedia worth of reasons as to why I want to CTB.

 

[Sayo]

I've always been preoccupied with death and unusually neurotic. There's a strong genetic component and my child environment was pretty unstable and negative for development (poverty, domestic violence, abuse, repeat pseudohomelessness, etc), so I guess at some point it was inevitable I ended up severely mentally ill. I had an existential crisis at ten that left me unable to leave my house shortly after my father's first obvious psychotic break.

Since then nothing has been stable really. I have worked hard to heal from each incident of revictimisation and move on, but I don't have a place in this world. Plenty of bad things happened like being raped but the inescapable part of my suicidality is just my incompatibility with this world and my inability to process it in a way that promotes survival. (And at this point distaste for doing so)

 

[Circles]

I've always been preoccupied with death and unusually neurotic. There's a strong genetic component and my child environment was pretty unstable and negative for development (poverty, domestic violence, abuse, repeat pseudohomelessness, etc), so I guess at some point it was inevitable I ended up severely mentally ill. I had an existential crisis at ten that left me unable to leave my house shortly after my father's first obvious psychotic break.

Since then nothing has been stable really. Plenty of bad things happened like being raped but the inescapable part of my suicidality is just my incompatibility with this world and my inability to process it in a way that promotes survival.

I feel like I've been having an existential crisis my entire life. Not knowing why we are here, or what's the point of any of this nonsense especially with all this suffering and death. I used to convince myself that we are the universe experiencing itself until that too just became a drag like everything else. And to top it all off is that there probably is no reason as to why any of this occurs. It could all be just a completely random configuration where given enough time something like us will occur in the multiverse. But then again why or how or what the fuck is the point of any of that and to what end? The Void is playing mind tricks with us and it's getting fucking annoying as I get older.

 

[Mr2005]

When I decided in 2004 I wanted plastic surgery then did nothing to get it. I might as well have committed suicide then

 

[starcrossedfate]

I've... seen things you people wouldn't believe...

 

[Daystavro]

I want to ctb because I have no financial future at 26.
No financial or social future.
Financial - I am not going to have enough money to support myself in about a year - two years max.
Social - I have social anxiety and I am very shy , I don't see myself ever having a gf or wife.

 

[fuckthis]

I'm a fuck up. I wasn't expected, I can't think of one thing that I have achieved in the entirety of my life. I'm still young but I have got by on luck and sheer coincidence, I'm unable to make friends and I struggle to leave my house. I leech off of my parents whilst I should still be in education. Instead, I spend most of my time in my bedroom wallowing in my own self pity because I'm a waste of oxygen. No relationship, no friends just me and the people on here.

Life is just too complex for someone like me, they say life is a bitch and it is. I just can't cope with it aswell as others do and I'm just feeble in general. I break down and over think quite often, I make simple situations much harder than they are and resort to suicide because I have no direction what so ever.

Fuck life. Fuck Earth and the people on here. Death is inevitable and you can't avoid it. I just want to take the fast track and escape this fucking shit hole, even then people suddenly want to get involved and stop me. There is no balance, I am either depressed and anxious for the rest of my life or suicidal. When it is the latter people step in, when I am depressed and anxious no one gives a fuck. Apparently people like seeing others suffer without a final solution.

 

[cap]

Severe anxiety. I can't cope it anymore.

 

[AgingLoser]

I failed at life and squandered my youth.

 

[Final Escape]

I failed at life and squandered my youth.

Yes me too, I didn't know what I should be doing or prioritizing once I graduated high school. So I ended up not really succeeding or achieving anything meaningful. I read a ton of posts now of older women who totally missed out on marriage and kids and in big part because we prioritized the wrong stuff when it was still easy to find a partner. Women can't put off finding a solid guy because our sexual, dating, marriage market value is highest until our mid 20's and after this we start to become less attractive to quality partners.