My greatest fear is irrational but it haunts me. What if we are doomed to be born and die endlessly until the end of universe? Yes in this life we are privileged humans at the top of the food chain, so we dont have to fight for our life at the daily basis, but what if we will be reborn as something that is just peace of meat for every other living form? This scares me becaue of my imminent death, I hate how life operates, nature is beautyfull yet terrifying. Its not impossible, we were born once into this universe, chances that this may happen again are probably same as for the first time, we just dont remember it, I cant deal with this, I hope after we die we can decide if we want to live another life or not because if this all bullshit called life is not our decision and its beyond our control then its worse than hell. There are trillions of insects and even more bacterias or other life forms... just to think how lucky we have to be to be humans is astonishing. Odds are against us and if I had to decide then I dont wanna live agian because chances to be human again are almost zero. Only if I had power to end universe , I would probably do that, I know that some people are living best life but most of the animals dont , we are just slaves to our biology, biochemistry and genetics, its not even us, we need social interactions because we evolved that way, its not our decision, we want to have sex because our hormones tell us that which again are made by our body that is following program called genetics. We have little to no free will, we cant really control anything.
