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SuicideMania

Personality disorder + psychosis
Sep 10, 2026
16
It was already several years ago.

It went like this.

I said I came to them because I was suffering mentally. I told them about my history and family, and that I'm suicidal. Here comes the funny part, it was something like that:

- How much are you suicidal?
- In percentage?
- Maybe.
- Around 60%.
- That's a lot. What do you think about hospitlisation?
- Of me?
- Yes.
- Rather not...
- Rather not? You come to me and say that you want to kill yourself?

I still find this dialogue hilarious, especially the part where I was confused about his hospitalisation question, lol.

Now I have question for you. How did your first psychiatric appointment look like?
 
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ilovecats1

Student
Apr 15, 2026
135
havent been yet. i am going to a psych for gender dysphoria related stuff to get reliable hrt so its all kinda out of procedure and not real so im never honest with them. i did notice this is where i was going a few months ago and i tried to be somewhat honest and just told them i cant do anything and cant study and all i got was useless advice like have smaller goals or something.
 
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HowToLive?

I don't even know anymore
Sep 5, 2026
6
I came there when things were still not that bad with me. I was still scared beyond reason tho, because of social anxiety and actually thought about just driving away at the last moment lol. But I pulled myself together and I'm glad I did.

The lady was nice and understanding and did most of the talking at the beginning, which helped me to open up.
I got some meds which actually worked at the time, so yeah nothing crazy, nothing out of the ordinary, got pretty much what I was hoping for.

I was improving for a solid year, but then some shit happened, additional stress and anxiety etc. etc. and well... there goes the streak. But it do be like that sometimes I guess. Trying to figure this shit out atm.
 
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