BipolarExpat
Accomplished faker
- May 30, 2019
- 698
the box is empty
Sometimes the fall kills you. Sometimes you fly.
- Mar 8, 2020
- 356
"I Feel So" - Boxcar Racer
It's not really about CTB but it sums up a lot of the reasons why I chose that path
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
It's not really about CTB but it sums up a lot of the reasons why I chose that path
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
ForensicallyAware
Specialist
- Feb 10, 2020
- 314
I do not know if will be my favorite, but it is a good song.
I could to die hearing this song......or maybe I should....
I could to die hearing this song......or maybe I should....
enjolras
Dead are useless if not to love the living more
- Feb 13, 2020
- 1,293
A full cycle of stop (depression) and go (reviving out of it)
Austere start, empty, daunting, almost ugly. Then the soaring from 1:50, gives me shivers. The voice and emotion are piercing
Austere start, empty, daunting, almost ugly. Then the soaring from 1:50, gives me shivers. The voice and emotion are piercing
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Bahbah Blacksheep
Member
- Dec 23, 2019
- 49
trouble
Member
- Jan 5, 2020
- 44
enjolras
Dead are useless if not to love the living more
- Feb 13, 2020
- 1,293
Diversion of words. About securing the convictions badly, on decision, on method, on application
Inferdan
Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
- Nov 3, 2019
- 450
Sweet Release
Experienced
- Nov 24, 2019
- 252
PillowSia
~Patchwork~
- Mar 2, 2020
- 19
It's a little lame, I normally listen to metal/rock, techno, and bit music, but I have like... sometimes I'm a little sad and I need to get it out alone while I have time so I can go back to faking? So I have a bunch of really sappy sad songs that kind of coax me into getting it all out before anyone catches me. She doesn't SPECIFICALLY mention CTB, but she does say things like 'fall into a never ending sleep' and 'sometimes I think I should just end the pain.' So it's pretty obvious what its about without explicitly saying it.
Although I do highly recommend Giving In by Adema. I am not sure if its 100% about CTB, (I'm pretty sure its just about drinking/doping to a point of possibly dying because you don't care anymore), but it certainly has that feeling to it. It was the very first 'non oldies' song I ever heard and I what made me fall in love with the genre of rock and metal lol.
Although I do highly recommend Giving In by Adema. I am not sure if its 100% about CTB, (I'm pretty sure its just about drinking/doping to a point of possibly dying because you don't care anymore), but it certainly has that feeling to it. It was the very first 'non oldies' song I ever heard and I what made me fall in love with the genre of rock and metal lol.
enjolras
Dead are useless if not to love the living more
- Feb 13, 2020
- 1,293
Act of Depression by Underoath
I had dreams for weeks hearing those screams
I had dreams for weeks hearing those screams
Girobatol
Specialist
- Sep 9, 2019
- 313
Hhhhhh
Student
- Jan 30, 2020
- 115
Yomyom
Darker dearie, much darker
- Feb 5, 2020
- 923
TStorm
Fading Light
- Mar 18, 2020
- 47
I like the song that is the OP's pfp, "I'm getting on the bus to the afterlife, bye-bye!" or whatever it is translated to in English. I'm a weeb so here is one I like.
Ghost - Badflower
I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
And I should have told my mother 'mom, I love you' like a good son
But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
I Can't Carry This Anymore - Anson Seabra
Mama said gonna be all right
But mama don't know what it's like in my mind
Mama said that the sun gonna shine
But mama don't know what it's like to want to die
PTSD - dying in designer
My boys hit the bar, didn't get a text
Hate my fucking self, still love my ex
Locked in this room, feeling too depressed
If I end it all, could I finally rest?
Why's everyone afraid to die?
I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
And I should have told my mother 'mom, I love you' like a good son
But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
I Can't Carry This Anymore - Anson Seabra
Mama said gonna be all right
But mama don't know what it's like in my mind
Mama said that the sun gonna shine
But mama don't know what it's like to want to die
PTSD - dying in designer
My boys hit the bar, didn't get a text
Hate my fucking self, still love my ex
Locked in this room, feeling too depressed
If I end it all, could I finally rest?
Why's everyone afraid to die?
Kokichi
If I died technically the problem would be gone
- Mar 28, 2020
- 22
Гууу
Member
- Apr 9, 2020
- 33
The first morning, the first time you realize you've laid it to rest yourself.
That god died in you, and I couldn't save you, even then.
"Lord come into my life."
These scars that never heal and the clarity that allows you to feel.
Enveloped, like the dead enveloped.
I wanted to change.
As if being discarded were that easy and the nights ended up being that empty.
It's so much more free, you were led by no one here.
This place is warm the change is definite.
And I've been stripped down, time and time again.
And left for the gray, and the cold.
Your voice changes pitch and blurs, like a storm carries a ship, you couldn't save me even then and I should have known that.
A bit sad not all into russian :)
