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purrpetrator

purrpetrator

All my troubles on a burning pile.
Apr 9, 2026
31
Might not be the right forum to post this in but I'm curious. Do you guys have any favorite lyrics from songs, whether it be a theme of sadness, suicide, death? Or however you'd like to interpret your song. I will start first :)

Goodbye, Michelle, my precious one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
Every time that I was down
You would always come around
Get my feet back on the ground
Goodbye, Michelle, it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
Wish that we could both be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the stars we could reach were just starfish on the beach
 
NitrogenNightmare

NitrogenNightmare

Member
May 30, 2026
7
I'd die to be where you are
I tried to be where you are
-Digital Daggers, "Still Here"
 
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RustedandWeathered

RustedandWeathered

Addicted to cutting myself.
May 7, 2026
20
"Now that the love has gone away
Too blind to see my way to live
I'll waste away from all the pain
For you I'd kill myself again
I hope you get to play your games
I hope you get to see your friends
I hope the guilt mixes the pain
I hope you never love again"

Strip Her Down - Cold
 
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spacefreightergirl

spacefreightergirl

let it all go
May 27, 2026
37
Coincidentally I mentioned in a post I made earlier today asking for a similar question and I interpret Bel Air by Lana as a song about meeting God/going to heaven after suicide so I guess that still applies here :P now that I think about it I'd also add Second Sleep by Magdalena Bay:

"I'm suffering, do you feel this cold?
I'll warm you up when we get to Hell
Second sleep is callin' out to me
If I don't wake up, I'll see you in my dreams
It's not natural, yeah, and I really need some help
Oh, take it back
Tear the city down, don't build it up anymore
Second sleep is callin' out to me"

The song also feels very cathartic which adds to the idea that it might be about suicide, like finally letting all everything out until it suddenly drops into silence at the end.
 
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ToothFairy

ToothFairy

Member
May 15, 2026
23
There was an angel at the entrance, checking off a guest list
Charlie wasn't on it, and was ushered to the exit
His heart sank
He was breathless
Excuse me, sir, there must be someone you've confused me for
If I could see someone who knew me or someone in uniform
I go to church on Sunday, truly, usually more
Screaming at the angels while they pushed him through the door

Charlie's Inferno - That Handsome Devil
 
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ShackledSoul

Member
Mar 22, 2025
22
Half light appears shading in the weary days
Darkness draws near spreading chills in endless ways
Death holds no fear for those who see clear
Is it today, Lord, that I'll reach you?
Is it today, Lord, that I'll reach you?

Old minds gain will strengthened by their silent prayer
New seekers still searching for you everywhere
Some find the way to reach you and say
Is it today, Lord, that I'll see you?
Is it today, Lord, that I'll reach you?

The Strawbs - Is It Today, Lord?
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
986
All our times have come
Here, but now they're gone
Seasons don't fear the Reaper
Nor do the wind, the sun, or the rain
Come on, baby
(Don't fear the Reaper) Baby, take my hand
(Don't fear the Reaper) We'll be able to fly
(Don't fear the Reaper) Baby, I'm your man

Blue Oyster Cult - Don't Fear the Reaper
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Enlightened
Nov 12, 2025
1,169
Picture yourself
There, in the snow turning blue
Get used to that being you…
Motive is key
Count off the friends who would care
If there are none, then you're there
Motive's a must
Shame & self loathing a plus
Tickets for under the bus…
Picture yourself
What sums up all of your ills?
Is it drowning or bullets or pills?
And try to detach
You're throwing the pills down the hatch
Or falling where no one can catch

Aimee Mann - Suicide is Murder


Life is unfair
Kill yourself or get over it

Black Box Recorder - Child Psychology


And if a double decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten ton truck kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure, the privilege is mine

The Smiths - There Is a Light That Never Goes Out


And if I die today I'll be the happy phantom
And I'll go chasin' the nuns out in the yard
And I'll run naked through the streets without my mask on
And I will never need umbrellas in the rain
I'll wake up in strawberry fields every day 🍓

Tori Amos - Happy Phantom 👻


All of this turbulence wasn't forecasted
Apologies from the intercom
And I am relieved that I left my room tidy
They'll think of me kindly
When they come for my things…
I always wanted to die clean & pretty
But I'd be too busy on working days
So I am relieved that the turbulence wasn't forecasted
I couldn't have changed anyways
I am relieved that I left my room tidy
Goodbye

Mitski - Last Words of a Shooting Star


If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

Death Cab for Cutie - I Will Follow You Into the Dark
 
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autisticmessiah

autisticmessiah

Member
Jun 15, 2025
42
Like dust
I'm lost in the world
I thought that I had
A particular place
Between the heavens
And the earth
Between the scarred sky

I feel the crunch of dirt
I smell the scent of flowers
My aimless feet
To be in the world
And not of it
That's the aim of the pain
I'm sorry that there seems
No happiness in life
I'm sorry that there seems
No one
Passing streams
Dying dreams
There seems to be no joy

You cannot see the ships sailing
You cannot see the sails sailing
Amassing as Christ on the horizon
Outstretched
Outstretched

Current 93 - Riverdeadbank
 
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spinelessparasite

spinelessparasite

New Member
Jun 2, 2026
2
Come help me die, my daughter
Walk me beside the river to the beach

Take a branch with your knife
Take my left with your right
Don't be afraid, my girl
Take me into the shore

I'm not cold, I'm not cold
Take my hand, take a hold
Let me lie on your arms

I'm weightless in the sea
Up to my ears the salt sits
In a circle around me

Come — Adrianne Lenker
 
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