Wow, I was expecting a lot more sexual-related desires in this thread... it makes my "deepest (realistic-ish) desires" seem weird now.
Backstory; A long time ago I dealt with sexual addiction (when I worked elsewhere in the UK), where I would regularly have sex with friends/work peers/random people there, just to deal with the constant craving and "withdrawal symptoms". It was always consensual and safe (protection was always used/I always got regular check-ups/etc), and I was always honest if I felt that it was only-ever going to be "just sex", because I never wanted to lead anyone on with the premise that it might evolve into anything more (I've been on the receiving end so I know what it feels like).
Anyway, it worked great for random encounters from swinger sites, but not so well with friends who afterwards would confess that they wanted more, and it made the aftermath difficult/awkward to live with. I pretty-much lost most of the friends there, had issues at work because of the tension that sleeping with different work mates would cause, so I eventually moved back to London and went to a sex therapy/addiction clinic. It was basically a community centre type-thing where people could voluntarily go once a week. We'd sit around talking about what we're going through and what we had done since our last visit, and by the end of the session we'd all be horny AF from listening to the stories, and would sneak off to someone's place afterwards for.... well, you know.
That wasn't helping at all, and as I was out of work at the time, my attention turned to masturbation and porn (which wasn't healthy for me, as it was like taking up drinking to give up smoking, but I managed to kick the porn habit a lot easier than the sex addiction). Soon after I found a new job, everything returned to normal, and my libido returned to "normal".
My deepest (realistic-ish) desires: So.... when I was at the group sessions, everyone was telling their stories about things they did (that they should've been ashamed about but obviously wasn't), and some of the stuff sounded kinda hot. Most of it was quite "out there/very taboo" but nothing illegal. Since Covid19 started and we all thought we would/might die from it, I've been tempted to try some of the stuff "before I go", and now that I'm planning to CTB this year.... I'm super-tempted to try out some of the stuff (but I don't want to be remembered by my good friends as "that weirdo-freak guy who did X/Y/Z") :shrug:
