You know you’re suicidal on Christmas when..

[annointed_towers]

You hear fireworks going off and all you think about is gunshots to the head

 

[nopointinlife]

You watch the opening ctb jump scene in Lethal Weapon over and over again

 

[Forever Sleep]

You've spent most of Christmas eve awake thinking about your CTB method while remembering 35 years ago, you were only too anxious to get to sleep so Santa would come.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

When you have about 2 weeks of life left (hopefully).

 

[Silent.Tears]

When your mother tells you what a disappointment you are, wants you to go away, never to return etc etc. People are so blind to my misery

 

[Disappointered]

...you spend hours on a suicide forum trying to forget that it's Christmas.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

You make snide remarks about how attractive cis women got the best present ever when they were born the correct sex, and that you want to die since you didn't.

 

[moggedtodeath]

You're researching handguns.

 

[theboy]

You think hang yourself like a "decoration"

 

[Bigpink]

Wondering if full suspension from a Xmas tree might be feasible

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case simply just existing makes me aware of the fact that I'm suicidal. I spend every waking moment wishing to be free from this world as I'm tired of being here.
But, yes fireworks are so horrible to me, I'm glad I've heard none recently where I live but I know that it always gets bad around the start of the new year. Unnecessary noise which disturbs sleep is definitely one of the things that makes me wish to ctb even more.

 

[Reallysad]

Wake up alone with your 3kids gone in a empty house .it's terrible ,would not wish it on my worst enemy

 

[rationaltake]

you consider tuning in for the king's speech

 

[Unending]

Suicidal is the default for all cheerful festivities

 

[Wannagonow]

When your mother tells you what a disappointment you are, wants you to go away, never to return etc etc. People are so blind to my misery

My mom said the same thing to me (over 30 yrs ago). That's why I seriously don't ever use that "D" word. Never. I hope you find some peace...even for a few moments.

 

[notthelifeiimagined]

When you've spent the day crying in bed wanting to end it all but haven't got the strength

 

[Lavender Dreams]

When mom tells you that next year you'll have to put up decorations in some house you wanted to buy... Only your throat tightens and silence follows, because you know it's never happening.

 

[leaf23]

You drift off to sleep wishing you'd never wake up

 

[Idontmatter]

When I've told everyone not to get me anything for Christmas and all I've done yesterday and today is think about my ctb day in a little less than 2 weeks

 

[lotus11]

You have covid, pretend to everyone that you don't have it, so you can go into work, get paid for working Christmas day and avoid any family Christmas....