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JWL

Arcanist
Jan 15, 2019
460
It's not worth it to think about it. You won't find the answer so why bother?


Sometimes the journey is more interesting than the arrival...
 
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firedragon135

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Jan 17, 2019
66
Sometimes the journey is more interesting than the arrival...
Have to agree on this. It's not about being born or dieing. It's about how we live our life and how we manage to stand up even tho life beats us down sometimes.
 
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Alois22

Member
Jan 24, 2019
10
I'm quite religious but I don't let that cloud my judgement of the afterlife, I believe that we do go somewhere as I've had experiences with ghosts and such so I believe, we must go somewhere in order for these apparitions to exist? But I guess not everyone believes in such things. I'd hate to believe that there is nothing after death, as all the loved ones whom have departed would never be able to contact us again! Which is quite bleak
 
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LongSeason

Member
Dec 14, 2018
83
At this point I just hope it feels as sleeping.
 
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Jan 18, 2019
61
I personally would like to think that death is simply timeless unconsciousness, that gives me the most comfort.
However the closer I get to my goals regarding CTB the more I seem to be second guessing myself about my beliefs surrounding the afterlife..
I am probably just second guessing myself out of fear though and SI although I really can't be sure..


The one thing I do believe though, is that upon death our bodies discharge energy.
Being that energy can not be created or destroyed the energy that was once in us can go on to power and do other things.
Which technically makes us immortal just not necessarily in a conscious human form.

So I like to think of positive uses of energy like the heat from the sun on a nice warm day, or the waves of the ocean, or nice flowers and trees, as a reminder of those who I've seen leave this world. Knowing the energy that once comprised them is still out there doing nice things..
This is also my own personal hope.. When I die I hope I can still give something positive back to the world with the energy I once had.
Hope this makes sense..
 
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JWL

Arcanist
Jan 15, 2019
460
I personally would like to think that death is simply timeless unconsciousness, ..

I think you'll be pleasantly surprised to find that the timeless unconsciousness is what you have just left behind.
 
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JWL

Arcanist
Jan 15, 2019
460
At this point I just hope it feels as sleeping.


But why? When you're sleeping you don't 'feel' anything. So if you don't know what sleeping feels like how can you say you hope for it?
 
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NoChoice

NoChoice

Fallen Zen Master
Jan 28, 2019
207
Would love to read some ideas and some comments on what people think what happens after your demise. The last few days i thought about it a lot and i have to admit sometimes i am afraid and sometimes i feel almost encouraged to ctb. I came up with some theories what could happen after our death, but i would love to hear what other people think about death as well

1: My most unlikely theorie: we fade into nothingness. Personally i don't believe that if our life ends we just stop to exist, but it could be i guess?
2: Our consciousness will unbind itself from our dead bodies and will search for another host (Baby in womb; either right away or maybe it can even break time and go to different timezones like the past); or maybe it will even not bind itself to anyone anymore and instead we will just exist as a consciousness, a silent observer who can't be seen or touched by anyone

I believe that we won't just stop existing, because our consciousness is something extremly unique and only humans have it. I think our brains just act like docking stations for our consciousness to get a grasp of our body, we are nothing more but puppets and when we die our consciousness (our real existence) just searches for another host. I think death is like a reset, we will just lose all memories and we will start a new life as a new human somewhere else.

Tbh even though i know the real me won't die, i am afraid of losing those precious memories i made with this shell. I know i will just be born again somewhere else but knowing i won't remember my loving mother anymore just breaks my heart.

Look into DMT, I just wrote a post on the thread titled afterlife about it. Having experienced it and done extensive research on it, basically it shoots your body into an entirely alternate dimension than this one and it oddly feels like "going home" and when you come back you feel like this place is alein. I am non religious and not even really spiritual but this experience is nothing to sell short, I am not saying anything is certain but DMT does release in large amounts from multiple organs in the body upon death and I think this surely best explains and hints at the POSSIBILITY of a beautiful afterlife. All of this is too complex for me to believe we live for this tiny portion on the cosmic scale and die and boom nothingness for eternity. Consciousness is the most important part of the universe, its needed for the universe to actually be percieved into existing and to be experienced, and from subatomic levels to the most outter edges of the known universe, this universe is fucking unbelievably complex and I personally think its constantly evolving and infinite. I like to believe that if you were dealt a fucking bullshit hand in this life, which certainly can happen, then some of your energy may be directed to other means of existing and having an infinite number of chances. If you truly hate life on every level I'm sorry, youve been fucked, because there are things in life that ANYONE would enjoy. I've been on both ends of the spectrum of experience, and while I have some of the deepest hatred burning within me for certain things, I tend to want to exist forever in one way or another.. maybe that is selfish of me. I love the stars and nature I just fucking hate the majority of humanity, they're the reason I was lead to the dead end I'm in now, sure some of it was my fault, but honestly without certain people in my life I'd never be in this specific position. Anyways, those are just thoughts and theories, any ones are as good as mine, it seems were not really supposed to know the answers to these deep questions so life just remains a mystery, maybe knowing would spoil it.
 
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JWL

Arcanist
Jan 15, 2019
460
I'm quite religious but I don't let that cloud my judgement of the afterlife, I believe that we do go somewhere as I've had experiences with ghosts and such so I believe, we must go somewhere in order for these apparitions to exist? But I guess not everyone believes in such things. I'd hate to believe that there is nothing after death, as all the loved ones whom have departed would never be able to contact us again! Which is quite bleak


Personally, I think it's more of a stretch to believe there's 'nothing' after death than to read widely, think, meditate or whatever and conclude that there might or must be something after this. Or else, what would have been the point of 'this'??

Love never really dies, so if your loved ones loved you, they will be there for you when the time comes.
 
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Weems

Weems

Experienced
May 5, 2019
204
I'm inclined to believe in the eternal recurrence. Which sucks, because I suck and my life sucks. But forever is a loooong time. It seems that eventually the same conditions would come around again. And who would be "you" in a reconstructed world except you?
 
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JoeFailure

Mage
Apr 29, 2019
592
I'm inclined to believe in the eternal recurrence. Which sucks, because I suck and my life sucks. But forever is a loooong time. It seems that eventually the same conditions would come around again. And who would be "you" in a reconstructed world except you?

But don't you think it's possible that part of you could evolve? Having learned from every mistake? I honestly don't believe I'm the same person that made all of those mistakes now. That person just put me in a hole so deep it's likely insurmountable.
 
Avicii

Avicii

Looking
Sep 4, 2018
424
I have tinnitus ''tis my reason to die the thought of tinnitus consuming me in an afterlife no thanks. No for me it's Hello Darkness My Old Friend
 
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Conflicted Cat

Conflicted Cat

Experienced
May 23, 2019
256
Every. Fucking. Day.

I just wish for a peaceful afterlife where everyone, and I mean everyone can just rest... In peace. All bad things and thoughts erased for just pure bliss. Be able to visit other dead loved ones, or pets. I'd like to think that my dead pets are just there, waiting patiently for me at the Rainbow Bridge. But sadly we'll never be able to know what goes on past death until we, ya know... Die.
 
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Weems

Weems

Experienced
May 5, 2019
204
But don't you think it's possible that part of you could evolve? Having learned from every mistake? I honestly don't believe I'm the same person that made all of those mistakes now. That person just put me in a hole so deep it's likely insurmountable.
I hope so?
 
WOODESITY

WOODESITY

Experienced
Mar 15, 2019
217
Consciousness is us knowing that we exist. We know about ourselves and that there is something special that makes us, us. If that makes sense to you. Animals don't have a consciousness because they can't ask themselves these questions like we do. They don't think about such stuff like we do. We think about a broader picture

I don't think it matters if animals ask or not whatever questions, we don't know for sure, animals are living creatures just like humans and they've consciousness and awareness just like humans
 
inconsequential

inconsequential

Enlightened
Jun 1, 2019
1,011
Sometimes I wonder.

I've decided that it is either firm nothingness that you're not aware of due to not existing, or you reincarnate until your soul has learned the lesson it is meant to learn. After that, you ascend to another density and go from there.
 
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CopyPK

Member
Jun 17, 2019
12
For those who have not discovered this thread, check it out. https://www.quora.com/What-is-it-like-to-die-2. There are many compelling stories of different people's life after death experiences, some of them are beautifully told and really helps you visualize what their experience was like. Their stories also differ greatly, so take each one with a grain of salt.
I don't envy anyone who is a regular visitor to this forum, including myself. I would have done it a long long time ago if i was not so afraid of the pain that I imagine must accompany my death. I've held my breath for 2 minutes in the past, have experienced an indescribably vast (but not infinite emptiness that survivors of near death experiences often speak of) when ive had very serious fevers in the past, and have experienced superficial injuries that hurt enough to distract me from thinking about anything else. all those experiences were pretty horrible. my mind cannot even imagine what dying must feel like. I can only put my faith in the fact that many people's account of their life after death experiences dont seem nearly as bad as i imagine dying must feel. but, having been depressed for so long(i havent truly laughed and meant it in over 15+ years) im far less scared of death now. the only think that drains me of any hope, more so than my inevitable suicide itself, is that this shithole of a world will not change after im gone. no matter what i do or try, i cant change anything about this hellhole we all co-inhabit.
i also have faith that this universe is just one giant calculator, a bunch of constituent matter and energy hurtling through time on an inevitable path towards some kind of convergence, where the universe settles into a physical configuration that is much more objectively better than the universe we live in now. and then it cycles. like hailstone numbers. (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Collatz_conjecture http://mathworld.wolfram.com/HailstoneNumber.html) in which case, after some unimaginably long length of time, our universe will start cycling through the closest thing to heaven that can exist. we are just all the very first, if not second hailstone in a very very long hailstone sequence.
 
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Dartz

Dartz

Give Me The Dirt
Jun 29, 2018
613
As long as it's nothing like my life I'm good with it. Blanket darkness and all.
 
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CopyPK

Member
Jun 17, 2019
12
there is no darkness. the human mind cannot visualize what it feel to be dead. try seeing out of the back of your head. try using your 7th sense to sense magnetism. try growing your limbs out to 3 feet long right now. you cant do any of those things, and you cant even imagine what it would feel like if you could
 
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CopyPK

Member
Jun 17, 2019
12
i really hope so. from personal experience and from accounts of people who experienced severe injuries and just browsing through google, ive learned that it is the superficial injuries that hurt the most. a lot of near death experiences tell of incredible peace and happiness, id like to believe those stories instead of the ones that tell of an infinite void.
 
onlyinsleep

onlyinsleep

I can see their faces
Jun 3, 2019
111
Because you can't really destroy energy, I believe we leave the body and go and possibly inhabit another, or go elsewhere. But where who knows. Statistically and somehow, I exist in this body. So I imagine odds are I won't disappear into nothingness forever. And some people do remember their last lives. There are accounts of this for reincarnation.
 
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Sailfisher

F’ing A
Apr 19, 2019
282
Constantly. That wonder and fear of failing is the reason for still being here.
 
Irishsteve88

Irishsteve88

To complete the ending
Jan 26, 2019
136
Well its a weird one for me

But after my mums death as we lowered her into the ground. This bumble bee was around me it wouldn't leave me alone.

Everytime a visit the grave there is always a bumble bee around me.

In ireland once a year in most grave yards we have whats called a pattern of the graves. Its basically a blessing of all the graves a priest blesses them. While familys gather around their loved ones graves.

Now I was at a different grave yard at a friend's pattern and this bee again was around me. Likewise when im upset or angry before my mums death I never came close to bees.

So yes I do believe you can be around people and most definitely at peace well I hope cause I only want peace..

The bee thing is probably just me I dont know.
 
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JoeFailure

Mage
Apr 29, 2019
592
Well its a weird one for me

But after my mums death as we lowered her into the ground. This bumble bee was around me it wouldn't leave me alone.

Everytime a visit the grave there is always a bumble bee around me.

In ireland once a year in most grave yards we have whats called a pattern of the graves. Its basically a blessing of all the graves a priest blesses them. While familys gather around their loved ones graves.

Now I was at a different grave yard at a friend's pattern and this bee again was around me. Likewise when im upset or angry before my mums death I never came close to bees.

So yes I do believe you can be around people and most definitely at peace well I hope cause I only want peace..

The bee thing is probably just me I dont know.

I'm hoping the bumble bee is her sending a sign, rather than her having to be a bumble bee.

If we're reincarnated based on life accomplishments, I'd probably have to graduate myself a million times before I hit bumblebee status.
 
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Space_Soup

Veteran
Jul 6, 2019
5
No way of ever really knowing I think because once you are dead, I don't think you are able to look back at your life to answer that question. With that being said, I believe we just get born into another life and we ask the same questions all over that we are asking today with no knowledge of our previous life. So many different theories, so many questions, but not a concrete answer to our existence and the reason for it. On a side note, if there is a Heaven/Hell, I'm probably screwed.
 

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