Venting You can cut the tension with a knife.

[HumanoidMonster]

Went to finally place an order for the SN from the newfound source, only to be greeted by a message stating you can't place international orders through the website but need to do so via Email. I sent an e-mail asking if it's possible to place aformentioned order, but the tension can be cut with a knife here, mainly because there's that lingering fear that something may go wrong and that I wouldn't be able to get my sweet sweet SN, but also the fact that aside from that other source from the opposite site of the world, I'm basically out of "nearby" (EU) sources that don't require me to own a company to place an order.
I'm trying to distract myself by drowning what can be described as voices and a nasty headache by listening to a 10 hour long video essay but damn is my heart racing. I am constantly finding myself switching over to the Gmail tab, refreshing to see if they have already responded.
I already know I'm gonna dream up some bullshit tonight that either I get my SN and die my happy ever after or that something goes wrong and I'm blocked out.
Jeez.
I know this is the second venting post I make on basically this topic today, but the doubts I had in the previous one were solved thanks to the kind people in this community (I guess I'm also taking this as a chance to thank them), leaving space only to these last minute doubts that have been flooding my mind.