Method Yew berries and/or hemlock

[mashirochoco]

Hello!
I'm not new to SS, suicidal ideation, or anything related to depression/self harm for that matter. Recently, my quality of life has deteriorated more than it ever has in my entire life, so I'm considering CTB again. I have already looked at quite a few threads regarding natural poisons: yew, hemlock, apple/cherry seeds and such. Someone ate yew berries and just went to the hospital after experiencing very much discomfort I live in the rainy PNW, and I don't have access to any sort of over the counter medicines or methods that would require much money. I have social anxiety and don't interact with the outside world much besides dragging myself to school, or have much money to spend. I was wondering about the likelihood of death if I ingested both yew and water hemlock.

I would like to go to a park or any large natural area and collect anywhere from about 30-100 yew berries along with the seeds. The yew berries I will crush and perhaps create jam, or mix it into teas along with some other beverages. The same will go for the seeds. I want to CTB in a desirable, enjoyable method, eating sweets and having yummy beverages like I always do. As if the yew berries weren't enough, I plan to spend time searching local bogs, ponds, and other small bodies of water for water hemlock. Water hemlock is regarded as one of the most poisonous, if not the most, plant in the USA, and you don't have to ingest very much of it (.2~.8lbs) for it to be fatal. It also is described to have a sweet, mild taste similar to parsnips, celery, or wild carrots.

I'm thinking I can basically drink and eat a whole bunch of yew berries and seeds mixed with other fruits along with a little bit of water hemlock perhaps in a salad or something, take a lot of Tylenol, and die (somewhat) peacefully, as no methods of CTB can truly be pain-free. I know it seems like a long shot, and I sound stupid for posting something like this, but I want to know if it could truly be successful. If not, what are some other natural poisons that could be used? I am also aware I might have to wait until spring to harvest these, and i'm looking for something quick, soon.

Thank you

 

[ipmanwc0]

Wouldn't say it's the most reliable method but if you take enough of them and the right part and make sure they're at the point in their growth where they produce the toxin don't see why it can't work

 

[eggsausagerice]

yew doesn't work. please don't attempt with it or you'll go to the hospital. there's only been failed yew attempts on the forum from people that have attempted to make tea out of it. there have been deaths from yew, but it's not reliable and is generally unsafe. it isn't peaceful either.

Yew attempt

I earlier posted a thread where I attempted ingesting tea made on yew(taxus baccata) I did so twice. Im not sure what if anything happened more than stomach issues because I went to the hospital each time (because I wanted to feel safe). I had the thread deleted because I felt self-conscious...

sanctioned-suicide.net

I survived :(

I drank the tea, cut myself then sadly backed out and called the ambulance. I regret that so much. In the hospital the staff was nice but they had to clean my stomach it was insanely uncomfortable. After that 2 weeks in the psych ward and only now do I have my phone back. The only symptoms I had...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Why aren't people interested in yew tree seeds?

Why aren't people interested in yew tree seeds? As far as I know, chewing 30 seeds can cause a heart attack. Is the poison ineffective? Is it taking a long time? Are the side effects of the poison severe? I want to know why, please give me an answer if you know

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[mashirochoco]

Thank you for your advice ＾＿＾

 

[absolute failure]

Consider the symptoms of yew poisoning. You're administering it through oral ingestion, so that means it doesn't instantly hit your bloodstream. You need to wait for hours as it works through your digestive system, during which the symptoms gradually ramp up, and your body goes on high alert to prematurely purge the poison. You'll be extremely delirious, shitting and pissing yourself, constantly vomiting, suffering from seizures, phasing in and out of consciousness, seeing shapes and lights-- and all of this for a very long time before the lethal symptoms even appear.

 

[pelicanportal]

Wasn't hemlock the preferred method for suicide and death sentences in ancient Greek and Roman culture? Seems like it worked for them, what are we doing wrong that it suddenly isn't viable? It does seem by all accounts to be a nasty way to go though

 

[eggsausagerice]

Wasn't hemlock the preferred method for suicide and death sentences in ancient Greek and Roman culture? Seems like it worked for them, what are we doing wrong that it suddenly isn't viable? It does seem by all accounts to be a nasty way to go though

comment in yew thread that applies to hemlock as well:

Varied amounts of poison, if you don't have enough dosage then you'll experience all the symptoms without succeeding, all pain no gain i guess.

people generally don't know how much henlock they should use. we're random people and don't know how it worked. hemlock was used as an execution method and a way to euthanize old people. it was a state sanctioned method of killing people, so someone that knew how to brew hemlock was providing the drink.

 

[bigsadbean]

comment in yew thread that applies to hemlock as well:

people generally don't know how much henlock they should use. we're random people and don't know how it worked. hemlock was used as an execution method and a way to euthanize old people. it was a state sanctioned method of killing people, so someone that knew how to brew hemlock was providing the drink.

Is there really no way for any of us to find out? I guess you can't type this stuff into a search engine easily. But hemlock is a lot more accessible than N or SN these days, if there's a reliable way to use it, it could be really helpful.

 

[CloudyDay]

I would be interested in knowing more about hemlock as well. If anyone has some insight... Please share with us.

 

[Nikkra]

Yew berries won't do anything they are actually edible and delicious i eat them all the time. The flesh of the berry is the only non-toxic part of the yew tree. The seeds in the berries are poisonous though you have to be careful to spit them out when eating the berries, each berry has one pit (seed) so it's not too difficult to separate from the berry. Once i accidentally swallowed a yew seed and i was scared i was going to die, i looked it up and i think it said 3 seeds could be fatal, but i didn't feel anything and was totally fine. It probably went straight through my system, i think the body has a hard time digesting the seeds

 

[Lemelonade]

I think that yew needles are much more poisonous than the seeds. Like Nikkra already said, the berries are actually edible, except for the pit.

When I researched yew as a method, I found that people usually use the needles. Apparently, the smaller you cut them, the more effective they are.

I have decided against yew because it takes too long and seems to be painful. I am going with poison hemlock (not water hemlock!) and painkillers. Poison hemlock seems to be effective, seeing that people would use it for suicide in Ancient Greece and other places.

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

are you serious lol

 

[Redhand5]

I would be interested in knowing more about hemlock as well. If anyone has some insight... Please share with us.

I tried it twice. Didn't work. There were probably specific ways of extracting the Coniine, which is the active ingredient that does the deed. I tried eating flowers, stems, and leaves and it made my lips tingled, my eyes lost ability to focus, my legs couldn't support me, and my arms were weak. My breathing shallowed considerably so I think it was close. But I woke up a few hours later just fine with no after effects, aside body smelling the plant for about a day haha. From the research I've done I almost caught the bus.

 

[Lemelonade]

I tried it twice. Didn't work. There were probably specific ways of extracting the Coniine, which is the active ingredient that does the deed. I tried eating flowers, stems, and leaves and it made my lips tingled, my eyes lost ability to focus, my legs couldn't support me, and my arms were weak. My breathing shallowed considerably so I think it was close. But I woke up a few hours later just fine with no after effects, aside body smelling the plant for about a day haha. From the research I've done I almost caught the bus.

Wow! Thanks for sharing.

If you don't mind, since I'm also planning to use hemlock - I have a few questions.

First of all, did you use poison hemlock or water hemlock? Did you use freshly picked plant material or did you dry it? Did you mix it with hot water? How much of it did you eat? Did you feel like vomiting at all?

 

[Redhand5]

Wow! Thanks for sharing.

If you don't mind, since I'm also planning to use hemlock - I have a few questions.

First of all, did you use poison hemlock or water hemlock? Did you use freshly picked plant material or did you dry it? Did you mix it with hot water? How much of it did you eat? Did you feel like vomiting at all?

I gathered poison hemlock I picked it fresh, since I read that when it's dried it has less coniine in it. The first time I chewed and ate the stems, leaves and flowers. Second time I soaked in cold water. Had no nausea at all. First time I ate about 2 cups, second time I soaked about 4 cups. The first time the plant was picked roughly 4 days before I ate it. Second time the plant was picked about 6 hours before I soaked it, soaked about 2-3 hours then strained and drank it.

 

[Lemelonade]

Thank you.
When you picked it 4 days before eating it, was it dried? Do you think that was the problem?
And the second time, you used only the water, not the actual plant, right?